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Sunday, August 21, 2005 1:24 PM ;||*her confessions*|| i jus completed my tcs assignment. pathetic. ive done my part, n de rest, i'll leave it to dem. im not de chairman in de group, but strangely, why do i feel lyke im one??! simple. bcos i handle everiting. *sickening* im born to lead, not follow. *get it??* at dis moment of tyme, im feeling rather erm..heartbroken?? yes, plus, i dunwish to receive any calls today, unless i feel lyke talking to someone. my mood is totally at de lowest point. sad. disappointed. again n again, u made me feel dis way. again n again, u disappoint me. wad wrong haf i done to deserve dis feelings from u?? u jus cant understand how painful i tried to hold back my tears. i tried to be an understanding person, yet u didn't see thru it. all i get from you is dat im being unreasonable. yes. how do u explain it wen u were supposed to get home at 11pm and dat u overtime till 3am??! rubbish. full of rubbish. i dun care wad crap ure trying to gif me. fact is, u dun care a single bit about me. go ahead n scream at me if you tink im being too unreasonable here. u wan to earn more money rigghtt??! fine. let's see wad dat money can do wonders to you. pretty please stop calling me or msging me. im replying to none of dem. everyting's too late. u broke my heart. and dat's okayy. i noe dat im strong enuf to bend down n pick up those broken pieces of my heart. im not goin to shed another tears for you dear. but i cant deny de fact dat im miserable. miserable looking at other couples carving a smile on their faces. u werent like dis before. time passed by us too fast. too fast fer me to handle n catch up wif you. all along, we were beside me, but now, i guess ure too ahead of me. n im left behind all alone, trying to catch up wif ur pace. but somewhere deep inside my heart, i noe i can no longer cnue catching up wif you. thus, i stop n look helplessly at you from behind. i wish i could turn back time. i wish i could hold you tight n neva let you go ahead of me. as i shed my tears fer you, i realized everything's too late. i wiped off my tears, and tried to be strong. i wanted to look life differently, yet, i longed fer your warmness n longed for ur true love. confuse i am. i walked away, telling myself not to look back, and so i did. but my heart is still left untended. please give me some time to mend my heart. nobody asked for dis to happen. perhaps ure rite. im trying to runn away from all dis miseries. im doin so bcos of one reason. i can no longer find dat energy in me to handle everyting. im too weak to carry on. i'll go my way n u'll go urs. dats wad im doin now. dun blame me fer everyting. bcos ure de one who force me to do it. im sorrie. *snap* tiger was superr duper great yesterdae. i wondered where he got all those courage. haha! served dat biatch..mentel-ness! lyke eeewwwww! stopp being too perasan-ish larh. *roll eyes* jus face de fact dat im not the only one who hates you. othas do. n yes tiger, make sure u mean it wen u said ure goin to roll her *toot*. i loike.. n stop putting ur adeq in trouble okayy??! dat is so mean of you, but whateva so, it's funn! hehs! seriously, i nid a belt. de brown billabong belt is so perfecttt for me. i'll get it veriee soon. syasya, im addicted to mr butterfly's phrase lar. suker hati mak bapak dier je.. *evil laugh* okayy..ure missing him. i can hear ur heart calling out fer him. he'll call u veriee soon la dear. trust me. i wanna watch some dvd again. i fall asleep while watching Honey jus now. *grrrrrrr* let's grind n get dirrrty people. dun jus nod ur head n jump around, dis is not a rock thing-y. u'll look lyke a pocong n stupid, u BIG loserr. lalala. That's It For Today. Goodbye.
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