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Thursday, August 31, 2006 10:30 AM ;because mars and venus are apart i didnt know talking to me is like talking to an animal. you've hurt me sooo deep. That's It For Today. Goodbye.
Wednesday, August 30, 2006 1:36 PM ;he who can, does; he who cannot, teaches just maybe i should start posting lively entry. &yah, i accidentally hit my toe at the back of preetyboy's bike while trying to climb on it. pain okay! yesterday after tuition, we had nowhere to go so preetyboy decided on Pasir Ris park. i, on the other hand, don't really like the thought of walking back and fro in the park; it's tiring. so i asked "b, why do you always like going to the park with me everytime we had nowhere to go after my tuition?" &he looked at me, stunned? because it's quiet and nice, you don't like it? he replied. "no. it's just that i prefer somewhere with many people." and he continued: then let's go to Simpang. there's a lot of people there. bah! i don't know if he's trying to bahasakan me or otherwise, which i declined. so we were stucked beside Fisherman's Village, looking at big fishes swimming gleefully in the pond. i swear at that point of time, my mind was totally free from every thoughts ive been having lately &for once, i feel so much freedom. plus, we did some real talk too when preetyboy popped up this question to me which totally scared me. "im afraid you'll leave me when im serving National Service." preetyboy, i admit that i do make big mistakes in life &that i totally regret doing such stupid mistakes. if you let me have my second chance, i want to love you all over again and make you feel being loved. i may not be good at expressing my love for you, but i want you to know that your presence in my life is everything to me. please know that i truly love you &that i just want to be near you. frankly, it scared the deepshit out of me thinking of those lonely days im going to have when you served your NS. if possible, i want to be next to you but the law doesn't approve of such mushy stuff. it has never once occurs to me that im going to leave you. everytime we talk about my feelings, i realized it's getting more complicating than it is already is. my actions don't go well with my words; and that's the downside of me. ive tried ways to deliver across positive messages, but all i get from the other party is something negative. but im certain, i love you so. you see, if everyone just read my entries without questioning, i would have typed down all my feelings and forget about the world. but oh well, that was just a little girl's fantasy. anywayyy, i received a handmade batik flower from a tuition kid since Teacher's Day is just around the corner. now i feel appreciated; thankyouverymuch. i had this itch to return to Pasir Ris Crest tomorrow, but i was told that there will be no celebration for Teacher's Day. i was like whattt?? are you goddamnit serious? then suddenly i have this temptation of wanting to see the new principal's face, tell me about it prcs-ian. but rest assured, both me & preetyboy have only one intention of coming down - we badly miss Mr Razak. period. That's It For Today. Goodbye.
Tuesday, August 29, 2006 3:43 PM ;the course of true love never did run smooth everything is moving at a very slow pace - that i can feel myself whining over stuffs countless of times until it came to a point where i just wish i can fast-forward my life. the people around me haven't been very good too, i don't want to hold grudges against them cause i see no reason why i should but then again, they are not the ones that are making my life better. i don't like the look some people gave me when i walked past by them; be it positive or negative. i can't help thinking that they are discriminating my life, or trying to bold the word 'imperfect' to me. That's It For Today. Goodbye.
Monday, August 28, 2006 11:57 PM ;cold enough to freeze the balls off a brass monkey i was mad pissed at Ciko for giving me the absolute wrong information about his Sunday's performance at Arts House. bloody hell, can't you see that your old cousin here was dying to give you some moral support? (actually, no lah. wanted to see didicazli. hahaa) but still, thanks eh! so much so for the need of tickets to enter the place when kyn actually got to set her bumps on the chair without even paying. it's free entrance la, gedegak! takpe, takpe! so there goes my Sunday plan to watch the performance at Arts House with preetyboy. it's rather i spent my whole Sunday at home chasing after pussy after bottomline, we have to find another name for him. pussy is soo girly. sprinkle perhaps? on a totally different note, i slept at 2am yesterday trying to complete my SIP Individual Report but it seemed as though i have to spend another two nights completing the whole report. report makes me sick cause one, my English is goddamnit pow-derful; two, i hate to think; and three, lengthy stuffs turn me off instantly. grr. this Friday shall be the End of SIP/MP - which means we have to come back during the holidays to finish up on our projects. how sick right? nak graduate peh pasal, sanggup aku datang skola tau! let's digress. prcs-ian, pretty please update me when is the Teacher's Day celebration. i might be coming down, really. no kidding. That's It For Today. Goodbye.
Sunday, August 27, 2006 12:35 PM ;if love is rain, i don't mind getting all wet just a quick update, shall we? i was supposed to get my tak-seberapa pay on Friday night but the tuition kid's mum just had to tell me that she hasn't get the money ready yet &that i will only be able to get my pay next week. i could have sworn that i almost blurted out the word 'wtf'. didn't she know how badly i need money? didn't she know that i have all my money plan ready? damn it, let's just say she ruined everything. and because of that, suddenly i don't look forward going to town with preetyboy the next day. tell me, what is worst than going to town without the ka-ching ka-ching? i will feel like a total uneducated bimbo, okay! so i withdrew another $30 from my bank account (in case you people just know me, yah..i have the bank savings as another alternative when im flat broke, but all those money are meant for my driving, NOT shopping). i had to discipline myself now that im nineteen. anyway, i withdrew the money with the intention of buying both the Dove shampoo and it's conditioner plus two boxes of Dove soap. that all cost me a freaking $20; do the calculation, im left with only $10. sesungguhnya i consoled myself that mom or sis will pay me back my money; afterall those stuffs aren't meant for me only, yes? disappointedly, they refused to pay me back for god knows why; and i being the heck-care type, ignored them the whole night and played with the cat &please, what is sooo wrong with dad nowadays? men, does making you go old cause the reason why you're turning childish? for the past 2days that i got some nags from mom, all dad did was to tease the bloody hell out of me that i just had to hit his back to make him stop teasing me. that stick-out tongue had to go, dad! despite all those misery (ya, not being loaded is a misery), we still hit town yesterday. first stop was to the aunty shop - i made a new 'dirah' sticker with the font that ive been eyeing on which preetyboy still thinks that the font looked minah-ish. bah! and another pink butterfly sticker to replace the Pro sticker just directly above the visor. after which, we rode up to Bugis to have our late lunch at BugisCafe. preetyboy, can you please stop staring at me? i will still feel uncomfortable and shy just like on our first date, hee! boo, their Fish n Chip is still the nicest okay! with the bloated stomach, we made a couple of turns in Bugis Village before i saw some heavenly love tops and bottoms. goddamnit, i have a thing for white tops with simple pictures on them &also damn-faded-almost-to-white jeans. ive calculated that both stuffs will cost me a freaking $80. next week it shall be! i thought i badly need a gold big studs to go well with my gold vintage necklace; so we went to Fresh Profusion for the must-have-all accessories. they sell the best earrings ever! after much preetyboy-can-you-please-help-me-see-which-shapes-suit-my-face-better session, he finally bought me three earrings; gold, green and black. oh by the way, i always ask preetyboy for his opinions cause i bloody trust his taste. haha! we had nowhere to go, so we decided to drop by Esplanade for more matreps and minahreps; both in the making and too-old for matreps and minahreps. haha! sometimes i feel like screaming in their ears: grow up!! (for the older ones) and eh hello, da 18 ke blum nie? (for in-the-making ones). please don't stare at me, been through done that. ew! i swear, the entire Esplanade was infested with 90% malays. bad bad! *shakes head* it was boringgg so we walked down to Marina and sat at the big staircase instead. preetyboy made me feel much better after we talked about the things that have been bothering me. we laughed over simple jokes, things like "okay b, spot the kecacatan in my face" and thanks eh for bursting out sooo loud. we watched stupid videos in his phone and made a joke out of everyone. it was funny and fun, b! and don't dance on your bike! i feel stupid with my tinted visor cause noone can see me smiling like a geek or laughing like a retard. for all they know, you shiok sendiri abeh gf tak heran. haha! we went down to East Coast Park to watch a performance. again, preetyboy made me sing out loud right in his ears and boy, he had fun laughing at my distorted voice until he almost fell off the bench. so kejam! but i enjoyed doing stupid things with him, it just make us feel even more closer to each other. late night, we went over to Changi to meet my parents. i always see this thing in my dad and mom; dad will always go hyper whenever he saw preetyboy &will always hug him by the shoulder, and mom will always tease preetyboy &after that laughed her hearts out. it's great to know that my parents are the best parents in the whole wide world (haha, over sae dirah!). soo..that was all about Friday and Saturday. boy oh boy, it wasn't just a quick update huh? hee! &today, i might go out with preetyboy That's It For Today. Goodbye.
Friday, August 25, 2006 4:18 PM ;spare the rod and spoil the child i wish i could write every single bit of what im feeling right now but it would only trigger complications and misunderstandings. but the thing is, i don't know how much more i can take in. the impact of everything is too loud; that sometimes all i feel like doing is jump onto my bed and cover both ears with my pillows. still, it isn't much of a help..really. yesterday was another 2am night for me. there's so much things that are playing in my mind; and they never once at the stop mode, probably just the pause mode. one after another came running towards me and spilled that drinks they're holding. it was never good, never fun like how some people think i enjoyed cleaning the spilled drinks. &every night, i will ask myself this question: will there be another chance for me? gorgeous is right. afterall, being a girl is tough. (READ BETWEEN THE LINES) like ive mentioned in the previous entry, yesterday was another sneak-out-from-school session. you know what? i think i prefer taking the bus to Orchard rather than the train. why you may ask; because i can goddamnit snore in the bus and nobody will ever care, unlike the train; open your eyes and you'll see pair of eyes staring at you. anyway, the first bus ride was a very short one, cause i was about to fall asleep when nurul told me we had to alight at the next stop. but, the second bus ride was heaven cause i couldn't even remembered falling asleep and what was the last song i heard before the song 'stared' back at me. &i woke up finding myself at the Youth Park. like, wow! everyone knows im broke, yet i wanted to buy the vintage necklace so badly. after much consoling myself, i finally walked out of the shop without the thing, and i must admit i felt a bliss of regret. oh well, i'll be loaded in a week time; the thing is, how much longer can i bare with only purple notes in my purse? anyway, they are the reasons why school is fun &why project is being put aside. =)
tomorrow is yet another town outing with the preetyboy. boy, i think im craving for satay at Sembawang Satay Club. what do you think? before that i need to get some sticker at the aunty shop for my helmet. nice! oh oh, i can smell the weekends. yummy! That's It For Today. Goodbye.
Thursday, August 24, 2006 9:47 AM ;things don't stay; they come and change every second one, i still can't believe that i have a cat wandering around in my house. two, yesterday for the first time in my entire life, i went all the way to the void deck to search for the 10minutes missing pussy. grr. three, i need ka-ching ka-ching like now! four, i have this little thing for anything that has Bambi on it. (my friend is selling me a Bambi tee for $20. if it suits me well, i'll go grab it. OhPetita has this Bambi earrings for sale, but oh well, i thought it looked too huge? &my Bambi necklace looks so perfectly fine on me.) five, do you know how bad i want to shop right now? six, since Monday i've been sleeping at 2am and wake up at 7.30am. bottomline? not enough sleep okay! seven, i have 2more weeks to completely finish my project which i doubt i can. eight, my hair is screaming for help. nine, time to start lying for the updating of my logbook and SIP book. (but when it comes to this kind of lying, my brain just refuses to function. damn!) ten, im going to town in a while; which means, im sneaking out from school pretty soon. now..that is what you call de-stress. &gorgeous, you are indeed my true friend. =) &&preetyboy shall remain the (love)boy of my life. inshaallah. i love him for a reason and i'll keep loving him. =) goodness, why do people (and me) love posting random stuffs? and they say, it's all in the mind. That's It For Today. Goodbye.
Wednesday, August 23, 2006 11:15 AM ;good things stay at home; bad things wander around gorgeous, never did i imagine that true friends will tell you if there's spinach stuck in between your teeth. somehow, you moved me to somewhere there are lights everywhere - lights of repentant. although on the other hand, it felt as though things are resurfacing back &that all i do was..nothing. denying is never a solution; people still talk about it. initially, it didn't really bother me a lot cause all these people who couldn't stop themselves from talking aren't those who are close to me. in other words, it didn't really matter to me. but after yesterday, i knew i shouldn't just sit &wait for miracles to happen. it's getting out of hand and im left confused. things happen for a reason. she came up to you for a reason. i became paranoid for a reason. she chose you among all my other friends for a reason. everything happens for a goddamnit reason. but it left me to wonder - what are the benefits? times i underestimate the beauty of life, the people around me and even the slightest yet honest advice from someone. maybe, i just need some time alone and stop thinking too much; it didn't help at all. people don't exactly think the way i think; they don't see things the way i see things. i might be taking things easily, but all they know was that im in the middle of toying with someone's feelings. &the next moment, bam! right to your face of how pathetic i am. fact is, i don't run away from everything - i put a hold to everything. i don't need people to love me, to adore me. and i always have trusting issues with all my friends. like ive said: i don't trust people for a reason. i don't want to go around deciding who is worth my trust at the end of the day. plus i don't want to be left disappointed the next morning. you get what i mean? i hate at the thought of making life difficult for my friends. i don't want to go around feeling awkward looking at the ones close to me. then again, in the end im the one who is left hurt &all i do is to make happy things for my friends; what's the point? i used to stand up for every right i think i deserved; i used to be that strong and cheerful girl; i used to handle all the obstacles with so much confidence. well done dirah, it's time for me to make a comeback &time for me to leave everything behind. in the process, everyone's going to get hurt. i know. gorgeous said this to me yesterday: good things stay at home, bad things wander around. i gave up thinking after 2am and just sleep off my hurt feelings. &this morning, i still feel equally hurt. i don't want to continue feeling hurt, just give me a week or two and i will be fine. im a tough kid when it comes to handling my matters. thankyouverymuch. That's It For Today. Goodbye.
Tuesday, August 22, 2006 10:29 PM ;they say the grass is greener on the other side alright, time to give some space for the pictures taken on syasya's birthday celebration in school(!!!).
..the birthday girl was pretty amazed at the surprised celebration. what's more; your cintancintun actually went down all the way to Swensen with his bike for your birthday cake tau. &they couldn't stop being the sweetest couple. =)
okay ciumcium, don't you think you should give some way to your girls? get it rockin, loves!
lesson learnt - never leave a camera in a guy's hand or redundant stuffs will resurface. like this!
bottomline, the birthday girl finally owned a Guess watch (after years of being with Roxy, grr!). time for a minor change, sweetheart! That's It For Today. Goodbye.
1:05 AM ;a companion is all i need; &thank god ive found one we dropped by Kallang for the Kallang Race at 2pm yesterday. despite the huge number of people there, we managed to catch the Mortad race..luckily! &boy oh boy, i was amazed when those cars drift like nobody's business. drift like you've never drift before early dinner was at Simpang with three other of preetyboy's friends. after what happened (inside story), i lost all my appetite &so i shared a plate of fried Maggi with preetyboy. after which, we had no other plans so i made my own plan - let's wash your WaideShot together, love! girlfriends, please do wash your bf's bike together with him. trust me, it's enjoyable! moving on.. she was at the doorstep since Friday. she couldn't stop taking the stairs up to my doorstep whenever someone carried her to the void deck. she'll wait patiently for anyone of us to open the door and greet her. she will grab every chance whenever we come near her. &she has only one good intention. she wants to feel love; the love from my family. this is the she that i was talking about.
isn't she adorable? tell me something everyone knows - i hate cats and i have an extremely high phobia on cats. but trust me, this cat is wayyy different. somehow i feel the connection between us; those eyes she has remind me of a companion. i won't deny the fact that i kept running away from her the moment i saw her at the doorstep but today, i told myself: "boy, this cat is love." funny how i looked forward to coming home just now; i wanted to see for myself how long this cat will wait for us at the doorstep. i carried it in just now and played around with her. love, she don't bite and she don't harm you. all she did was circled me and rubbed her body against my legs. i felt good and even started talking to her; deep inside i knew she was listening without understanding. =) dad was busy asking what name should we give her &i went "pussy!!" but it was rejected due to being soo pussy? we came out with all sort of names, from a male to a female name but nothing beats pussy. the lil one couldn't help joking around with her and called her Siti of all names. oh please, i don't want another malay name. so dad, we have a new visitor - let's call her pussy or love. p.s: i still do have phobia on cats but this love is exceptional. =) p.s.s: pictures on syasya's birthday will be up pretty soon. That's It For Today. Goodbye.
Monday, August 21, 2006 12:07 AM ;happy birthday Syasya the Kissing Partner
2years plus (and still counting) of friendship has unexpectedly morphed us into two beings that can never be separated. it's childish how we both thought that we were actually being separated at birth - how our pimples always grow at the same spot, how we both fall sick on the same day, how we both think alike and how we unexpectedly wore the same colour top. all those things that we've done together, i would never dare to ask more. if my feelings and emotions could be exchanged to money, you would have been rich. in other words, you mean a lot to me. god is kind enough to let me have a beautiful friendship with you; to let me meet someone like you. girl, i may not be your number one girlfriend, but you must know that i always try my very best to be there for you; to share my laughter with you and to shower you with confidence and smiles. please remember that i prefer fork and spoon to chopsticks and that i don't walk on grass. please know that my favourite colour is pink and not purple. i will try my very best to remember all the things about you. thank you for being who you are; cause you make a special someone in my heart. i love you the way you are, so be it. don't worry, i wont make you my lesbian partner. you'll be alright. =) p.s: don't eat too much cake! That's It For Today. Goodbye.
Friday, August 18, 2006 11:00 AM ;if you think you have the right to talk, wait till im done seriously, i don't understand some people and i don't get what exactly they expect from me. i made it so clear to every single of my friends that i have difficulties trusting people; i only believe whatever people said. is that such a bother to you? so what if people talked about me; it's you who decide whether to believe or not. & you know what? your words don't synchronize well with your actions. f.r.u.s.t.r.a.t.i.n.g i don't need you to trust me and i don't need you to believe me; i know myself better. thankyou. ...preetyboy, is my butt shrinking? That's It For Today. Goodbye.
Thursday, August 17, 2006 11:43 PM ;even if the sun fades away, i'll stay by you i never go against my words &i never make promises if i know i can't fulfill them. so anyway, hello to the blogger's outing pictures (thanks aisha, love!) on last Sunday. i won't go into so much detail cause it'll be like a composition here - but frankly, that was the best day of last week. thankyousomuch! oh yah, babysassy came to join us shortly after we reached Far East &my dear niniee was late due to work the night before? hahaa. loves, i noticed her first; yay! we were playing this game with no prizes and motives on whoever can spot niniee first &shab was too busy with her sixth senses which are always right. woah woah - over eh you! as usual, we did our usual things over at Hyatt's hotel. funny how we realised that everyone enters Hyatt for only one reason - their toilet is amazing.
soon after, babysassy left and that left with the four of us. &on that day itself, i actually walked from Far East all the way to Plaza Singapura or rather to Cathay. it was quite a looong journey, if you must know. but with a touch of jokes and laughter, it felt good to walk rather than taking the public transport. as usual, i always ended up laughing the loudest (not fair tau!). shab was trying her utmost best to give one pathetic flyer to any passers by in the middle of nowhere; like while crossing the road (i mean, who gives out flyers in the middle of a road right?), along any pathway we passed by (even at the road bank) and in front of Cathay (okay, that place was a bit reasonable, atleast). but in the end, no one could be bothered with her one pathetic flyer after she naughtily swerved the flyer away from a person's hand whenever that someone wanted to grab the flyer. she's sooo mean! so the flyer ended up in one of the bins in Cathay. please shab, don't ever try giving out flyers on the escalator. omg. next stop..
their chocolates got me high and boxer turns me on. lick lick.
after niniee left, shab was left talking to faiyadz (bumped into him there) and so, the both of us got crazy infront of the camera. we couldn't stop snapping, i swear. it was until Wild n Out was on the big screen that we decided to stop. hahaaa.
bottomline, i love them. till the next outing to Sentosa, loves! p.s: shab, i don't care if you're going to use your umbrella everywhere, even on the beach. i don't care if your greatest enemy is the Sun. i don't care if you're going to join us at night when there is no sun because you know why, we are dragging you no matter what. &no is never an answer from you to us. time to love the sun babe! ..& i've changed my friendster layout =) That's It For Today. Goodbye.
Wednesday, August 16, 2006 11:34 AM ;i have a secret - mum, i want to bring home this guy preetyboy thinks i get uptight very easily and that i like to keep things to myself, oh really? yes most probably because you know why, i come to learn that different people has a different kind of view and explanation. &i hate it when people sungguh-sungguh want to go against me; so keeping everything to yourself is the best solution, don't you think so? actually, ive been updating a lot thus neglecting my project. come on, progress report 2 is just next week and ive yet to implement all those features in my project. the thing is, i don't know how to go about doing it. sigh. sometimes i feel like giving up &just leave everything behind and for once, do something that i truly enjoy; but at times, i feel as though giving up now is so equivalent to wasting my 2years plus in poly life. well the thing is, i've been blogging about this again and again but im always left with the obvious solution - get a diploma fast and get the hell out of poly. oh, period.
yesterday, the both of us spent some quality time at Pasir Ris Park. we talked about a lot of things; until he came to a point when he said: eh eh, do you know that im not a guy who goes up to a girl and asks for a number? because i don't usually make the first move. &i went: oh is it? then how do you get to know me? he paused awhile before answering this: i don't know. it happened naturally. (and he looked away) pantat, still don't want to admit! next, he asked me a kid's question: b, have you ever thought that you would be my girl? hahaa. i almost choked on my saliva while lying on his lap; i sat up, rested my head on his shoulder and went: to be frank, yes. that was in sec2 when i realized you were the cutest thing, not the most handsome guy though. it's rather you outshined the rest of the guys in your clan. (psst, i had to say that before he thinks so high of himself). but too bad, you were with someone else and i thought you didn't notice me. im pathetic, tell me that. hahaaa. anyway, the point is, im in love with a preetyboy; the boy that i once dreamt of being together. =) but today, he msn-ed this to me: Md Farhan: b, nowadays i feel so hyper gitu. kenapa arh? and i can't control myself. __dirah * be.you.tiful puppet: eh eh, da kenapa nie you? Md Farhan: sawan la i suspect. __dirah * be.you.tiful puppet: ah tu ah, you tido tak bacer doa ar i suspect. dang! mum, do me a favour - tell me that i know what i want in life &that this boy is not crazy, he's just being cute. =) That's It For Today. Goodbye.
Tuesday, August 15, 2006 10:46 AM ;i'll take your heart &walk with you
Y seducing your sweetheart and captivating their heart has never been easier; but he made it all sounds so easy. i was delighted when you handed me this letter of scribbled words although i couldn't figure out what was your motive. you told me it was just a random stuff you did when you were bored tutoring the kids, but you know what: this kind of random things mean a lot to me. =)&you make our lovestory so much astonishing. kiss my lips and touch my skin; bring out passions deep within. pull me close and hold me near; take away my pain and fear. That's It For Today. Goodbye.
Sunday, August 13, 2006 11:07 PM ;if fun is worth money, i would have been rich
fantastics are love, don't you know? thankyousomuch for this 'bambi' necklace! pretty girls, i had absolute fun today; awesome! so my day today was all about them, the expensive loves. despite the initial meet-ups at 2.28pm (don't ask me why it's 28, i found it funny too) at Orchard; despite one love waking up at 2 and the other at 3; despite still-at-home-at-2.28, we still had a dosage of fun. =) more updates about today's outing later on with pictures (from aisha). people, don't you want to know anything about my Friday's kids are just adorable, damn! yesterday was the last day of Singapore Firework Festival; so i was there at Esplanade to witness everything. &being the daughter, i dragged mom along; those other two siblings were bad, they buey-ed me at the very last minute. grr. anyway, the fireworks were amazing; much better than those previous days (maybe because it's the last day) but the crowds were god damn it! we were stuck in a big crowd and people refused to stand up and give way to the crowd. people who shared the same fate as me would probably know what i went through of being pushed and pulled in a crowd. some people are just heartless and cruel, if you must know. atleast if you want to rebel the crowds, show some pity to the small kids who were suffocating. i stood speechless; admiring the beauty of the fireworks. it was worth every second getting stuck in the crowds (just maybe). late night supper was at Ali Cafe. fish and chip for me, thank you. &today i realised something: im having pimple outbreak and an ulcer; oh, tell me about it. That's It For Today. Goodbye.
Friday, August 11, 2006 5:19 PM ;being richer is everyone's desire i was at Simpang Bedok indulging the Kebab when Singapore Idol was on tv. seriously i can't be bothered to wait for the result; they were all craps since day one. for all i care, Hady is still in. =) but wait, what happened to Rahimah's voters? i was quite shocked with yesterday's result - compared that bottom two, i think Rahimah deserved to stay. but frankly, you think people bother to vote with their ears and eyes open? now, if i get money everytime Joakim managed to squeeze his way to the next round, i would have been rich that MayBank had to beg to differ. so from today onwards, i will put a dollar coin each if Joakim and Jasmine manage to go to the next round. look daddy, im helping you out and doing you a favour. luckily i wasn't around dad when Rahimah was (confirmed) voted out - for all i know, seconds later i'll see a flying object. psst - she's my dad's favourite contestant apart from Hady. for now, say hello to the cheerful dirah and goodbye to the moody dirah - that matters. random fact #1: just now, i had my nails painted ugly-ly random fact #2: gino gave me a belated birthday present yesterday. i was very much delighted when i saw a charm bell-all-around anklet; it almost brought me to happy tears cause it reminds me of how much i miss my (lost) charm bracelet given by the elder sis. so now, everytime my right feet moves an inch, you'll hear the ringing of bells. &dear nurul just loves to make me tip toe my way through so that i'll look like a moving puppet on its own with no bells ringing. gracious! random fact #3: i have only $70 to last me till the end of August &that is after the little one whispered to me yesterday that she badly needs $10 for her ezlink which she lied to mom that she had topped up days before. penipu kau! ah ye lah, duit aku pe jadi sengsara kau. grr. random fact #4: friends come and go; but i'll stay (forever and ever). i love my preetyboy! =) That's It For Today. Goodbye.
Thursday, August 10, 2006 11:52 PM ;didn't i always have your shoulder? everything has been traveling at a fast speed; i can barely catch up with time. &what is so fucking wrong about me? you know, it takes time for me to realize that im such a bitch these past few days. apparently, that realization only occurs after days of staring at myself in the long mirror. i can't help feeling emotional, angry, frustrated and whatever kind of other same relations they have; i hate myself for that. damn, i can't seem to control my own emotions. when im mad, you'll be ignored; when im frustrated, you'll be shouted at; &when im pissed, you'll be my pissing partner. somehow, it's all too late for everything. and now, im feeling pissed again for god knows why. oh, because my helmet sucks to the fucking extreme. damn it! let's just skip chapter, shall we? tuesday night was very very good, minus the fact that my helmet broke on me. initially, i wanted to drop by Bugis to get my black pants but there wouldn't be too much time to catch the 9o'clock Singapore Firework Festival at Esplanade. so instead, we stopped by Esplanade and made our way into the pathetic crowd. ya, pathetic because i actually did screamed at a girl for pissing the hell out of me. i mean hello (!!!), you can't possibly hold tight onto your friend's hand and refused to let go even when you have no choice. i was like: damn, let go la sia! &stop that screaming competition with your friend. cb! so i was known as 'that blogger'. i don't know how that came about but in case you need another 'refreshment', my name is dirah (the vivalicious/the spoiltbabe/the preetyboy's gf). hahaa. i was told by preetyboy that a group of girls went: eh eh, that blogger ah (with a finger pointing at me, but i was too busy fed-ing up with the pushing crowd to realize it cause if not, i would have smile at you, really.) so girl, if this happens to be you, well hello! =) the fireworks were awesome, seriously. as usual, everytime it explodes, the crowds will screamed and squealed even to the extend of making their voices louder than the kaboom-kaboom fireworks & that left me with, okay whatever. then i made my own fantasy; what will the world be like if you can pay someone to shoot fireworks for you times when you're stress and down? heaven-ness!
yesterday itself, i made my own way to Kallang Riverside with the little ones for the parade's fireworks; i still prefer those at Esplanade though. =) before which, we stopped by Bugis to get my black pants at a reasonable price, im contented la. oh love, we didn't miss out BugisCafe's cookies. had a quick lunch over at Burger King before taking the train down to Kallang. only god knows how crowded Kallang was, goodness i can barely breathe, let alone to squeeze our way through. nevertheless, we got the most good view of the fireworks; and i thought about preetyboy. boy, he must be enjoying himself there at the parade with his family. a good thing, indeed. =) after which, we took the train up to Marina Square to meet some people. oh before i forgot, niniee called me up when i was in the train to Bugis; if not because you missed me, i would have tied you up at a coconut tree for commenting my voice like a chipmunk. actually, how does a chipmunk sound like? was supposed to meet that love at Marina's bowling with some other bloggers (according to her) after the fireworks but sorry babe, i was too tired i guess. perhaps, some other time? now, who says in a blogging world, you cannot expand your circle of friends? hmm.. on top of all those, i slept like a baby and refused to go to school today. what the heck! &projects are driving me insane. you know what, i can't wait to graduate and take up hairdressing instead. that's so redundant, dirah! ...it all feels good after a good cry &a shoulder to lean on. p.s: does PMS always makes you go moody? That's It For Today. Goodbye.
Tuesday, August 08, 2006 2:24 PM ;you wouldn't bother what is in my mind okay, somehow i know im late at wishing this birthday boy in my blog. yesterday was his birthday anyway.
a whole bunch of us went to catch the movie 'Click' and it was hmm..pretty too much fakeness? yes, somehow that kind of movie can lead to boringness. it was fun, funny and exciting in the starting but towards the ending, i became restless; don't ask me why. walked around aimlessly and i was entertained by the others who played in the arcade before heading for lunch. after which, i accompanied preetyboy to Storm for his haircut. boy, it's time for a haircut, seriously. don't tell me you want another armpit hair as your sideburns; and the length should go cause i like neat boys. =) being the sweetest ever (ehem!!), i paid for his haircut plus a wristband he bought over at Tampines Mall. now you look so much better in your new hairstyle. thank god! p.s: i have a passion for being jealous over small things. my mom lives under jealousy too; so is my dad. i guess when it comes to me, their jealousy was passed down to make it double or something. new added 'stuffs' to your lunching mates; can't you see im still wearing a frown? you should know me better &you just ruined my mood. stop it siak! That's It For Today. Goodbye.
Sunday, August 06, 2006 8:09 PM ;surprise me no more, please yesterday was another belated birthday celebration for me & i appreciated those gift and treats very much. thankyou. we hit the town at 1pm to get my vintage-like dress; it was a pretty thing im sure of although it's too revealing and expensive? it's okay, really. off to Shaw House to catch the 3.15pm Fast &Furious Tokyodrift. with much honour, i would like to rate that movie an awesome four out of five stars. trust me; i don't regret a single bit watching that movie. preetyboy, would you get for me a copy of that movie? =) for once, i wish my instructor can teach me something about racing. yeah right, driving belum pass, nak race. after which, dinner was over at Orchard Shopping Center's Sakura (international buffet). another treat from the beloved little ones; nirah and ayun. but do you know that it still hurts to see two secondary school students forking out such big amount on my birthday? hahaa, thank god i looked away while you girls dug your purse. anyway, cheers to the belated birthday girl!
( they forced me to pose for this picture and pretend that im greedy when in actual fact, i don't ;p ) more to come..
sooner or later, somebody starts to feel at home. good good.
shabLOVE, i still couldn't find the butterfly necklace but i think i got the right shop. =) as for last friday, it was yet another start of my new tuition with my one and only little girl, Liyana Izzati. damn goodness, i miss that little kid so much &together with her other siblings. my all-time favourite is Hilman Afiq a.k.a Eman. he loves to kiss me, hug me; and i love those kisses and hugs too. and i don't mind the fact that he was being kaypo during my tuition. look..
isn't he adorable? and boy, one last pic with kak didi okay? (apparently, they called me kak didi)
thank you! now i will always be looking forward to my Friday tuition (because of you kids). didn't i once tell you that i like surprises? but i hate it when the surprises didn't turn out pretty cool and left me feeling guilty. oh boy, why is my Sunday so dull and shitty? That's It For Today. Goodbye.
Friday, August 04, 2006 3:26 PM ;random oh random here are the replies to my tagboard: mel: oh babe, it feels sooo good to be 19 ;p &yes, the cake was simply delicious la! kyn: you are the one soul that cannot wait for me to update about my birthday. hehe, anw, you're right. the birthday celebration was awesome! prada: oh, hello love!!! cooker: my english is horrible, if you must know la. but anyway, thanks for dropping by. luke: thank you classmate! =) liyana: thanks for the wish beautiful! =) shab: ya, that's the exact reason why i went speechless. yes love, i had a blast but next Sunday is fantastic still on? syasya: last warning eh. stop being irritating menjeng! That's It For Today. Goodbye.
3:17 PM ;do you have the remote? i sneaked out of the lab yesterday from 11.30am to 4pm for town; i dragged preetyboy along and boy, he dragged romano and fattah along (who made us wait at the carpark for almose 45mins. grr). i swear, those two boys were better off taking the public transport instead; which means less noise. whenever we stopped at a traffic light, i could have sworn that i could hear their monkey voices even when they're 2metres away. so anyway, we made a stop at Far East Plaza for lunch before going to Colours for my pumps. boy oh boy, i think laughing is enough to fill my empty stomach; stupid bobo (BOyan BOdoh according to preetyboy and fattah). hello, im a boyanese too, so please eh! it all started when ano started giving out boyan words to preetyboy and fattah and made them guessed what those words meant. things like ngalo = show attitude. pretty soon, i guessed he got a little bit excited and started to give out more which eventually turned out to be funny because i swear i don't know those boyan words actually exist. yes, actually. he was soon told to shut up by preetyboy because his brain couldn't take it anymore. he was like: ey, you can just create any stupid words and make us guess what those boyan words stand for. for all we know, we've been fooled by you. hahaa. quite true la when he started to go off-point to saucer and cockroach, when we actually start out by talking about different behaviours in boyan. pumps was at 10% off. good deal. so, checked. Missha high volume mascara, checked. irritating! how can preetyboy think sooo low of vintage necklaces?? too mami jarum? puh-lease! nevermind, i shall get it when you're not around. who knows you will change your mind after seeing those vintage necklaces on me? ha! i insisted on bringing the bike all the way to heeren instead of walking back and fro. =) time to get ano his new pair of Everlast shoe; which happened to be out of stock. damn right, i know. yelah, setiap kali gi clubbing kene pakai kasut baru ape! That's It For Today. Goodbye.
Thursday, August 03, 2006 5:11 PM ;happy 19 birthday happy19birthdaydirah! she was one happy girl yesterday; she loves surprises and more surprises. and the people around her just couldn't stop surprising her with stuffs and more stuffs. my phone started beeping nonstop even before midnight &when the clock struck 12, it seemed like everyone started to press the 'send' button and my phone, oh i pity you. for once, i don't feel like sending the same old 'thank you' message to everyone; too boring. the morning started off pretty awesome. mom woke me up before she went to work just to kiss me and wish me a happy birthday. preetyboy gave me wet kisses and wish me. and panata gave me a really really pleasant surprise; so much so for your help-me-see-if-nis-is-in-his-lab. i looked up and this was what gasped me:
awww..i went speechless, total speechless that i went over to their lab and personally thanked them. =) lunch was over at bistro delifrance with preetyboy. one word; yummy! thanks for the lunch love!
after lunch was yet another surprising moment; they surprised me with a chocolate birthday cake together with a loud and very loud birthday song, followed by claps from everyone (as in everyone at the concourse level). oh boy, ive never feel that shy before. & preetyboy, you got it all planned eh! okay dirah, time to make a wish and blow the candles..
followed by cut-the-cake-please.
ever wonder how were things behind the scene? here you go..(thanks for the pics panata!)
and after that, we had the moments to ourselves; simply enjoy!!
chocolates really will make you go hyper. the proves are here.
people, million thanks to the wishes and presents and surprises. you guys really made my day; and im really really touched plus a little bit of flatter-ness. i didn't know being 19 still feels good with birthday celebration. & to this cintan cintun, you guys made everything happened! thankyousomuch.
after being years of watch-less, finally im the owner of this new edition of Esprit's watch. thank you preetyboy!! boy, im still waiting for my bdae long long letter. hahaaa.
plus the fact that panata completed everything with a birthday card from her. i was moved to tears, i swear. yes babe, we are THE twins that probably got separated at birth. =)
iloveyouguyssomuch! p.s: but i love my preetyboy the most. ;p p.s.s: it's a pity teksterNURUL was sick yesterday. hmmph! but girl, thanks for the hug just now! That's It For Today. Goodbye.
Tuesday, August 01, 2006 2:47 PM ;the days never go duller so it has been two days we had lunch together; just me and preetyboy. yesterday during lunch (back at my house), i brought home a Filet O Fish meal and a packet of Maggi TomYam for him. he insisted that i should prepare the maggi since ive never cooked anything special for him before. love, don't you know i make a bad cooker? so anyway, i prepared the maggi for him and i actually added in an egg as requested by the one and only (cerewek!). seriously, he is one because he turned off the gas even before the maggi is fully cooked because according to him, he don't like fully cooked maggi. okay love, whatever. =) luckily he gave me some compliments; now i have the motivation to cook for you if you want me to. plus next time, i should trust the little one's comments. she always think that my maggi is much more tastier than my elder sis' and my scrambled eggs are simply delicious. overrated eh? today's lunch was pretty awesome. initially, i planned to eat Changi's Nasi Lemak but after panata told me that she craved for Changi's Nasi Ayam Penyek, i subsequently changed my mind on having Nasi Lemak. poor panata had to follow her rider to Afghanistan instead; fulfill your craving some other time okay? we packed the foods and decided to eat at Changi Beach instead. romantic mah; furthermore preetyboy brought along his mat *wink. so we sat down on the mat and ate our food, plus the fact that preetyboy kept wanting to give me his chicken which i said 'don't want' over and over again. he's so menjeng (manja + miang), you don't know ah? after the heavy lunch, he couldn't stop lying down and irritate my legs. at one moment, i finally used my utmost force and pushed him away but grabbed his hand when he was about to roll on the grass. see, afterall im not that mean girlfriend of yours. well, it didn't end there. i actually got irritated with his messy hair; thus i tied his fringe with my rubber band. hahaaa he looked pathetic with the coconut-like tied fringe; and i couldn't stop laughing and making fun of him, of course! i especially enjoy the moments when we wrestle each other. i love the false hopes he always give me. i love it when just as i thought im going to make him lose, he turned me upside down and trapped me. like 5 seconds ago, im on top of him (weehoo, aku kuat ah!) and then 2 seconds later, he's already on top of me, leaving me to scream 'let me go! let me go!'. yes, we wrestled on the mat just now. no wonder passers-by looked at us as if we each don't have a nose. ..& tomorrow is yet another day im looking forward to (hint hint). please 6280, don't die on me just like how my previous 7250i died on me. im counting on you to make my special day even more special. =) That's It For Today. Goodbye.
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