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Wednesday, May 31, 2006 3:13 PM ;||*those kept me thinking*|| boy oh boy. time is really leaving me behind and i swear, those energy that i used to have weeks ago has finally vanished into thin air. how can i possibly predict that time wasn't crawling anymore? i guess for now, i really really have to discipline myself from that GSS; try not to create another hole in my purse and ofcourse, gain back the energy! so dear reader, that was the very reason why my last entry was on Sunday. talking about money, please don't ever ever mention to me anything about sales here and sales there okay? cos i am sooo broke la and looking back, what a time of the month to be broke, yes? im depress, fullstop. since im blogging at this very minute (like wow!), let's just do a lil recap of my Monday and Tuesday, shall we? monday was nothing exciting, minus the fact that i had my driving practical. at the moment, slopes are going to be my next bestfriend in my driving list. oh well, it's just impossible to scrap learning on slopes right? it might sounds easy-peasy but hey, not for me though. i have this indescribable feeling whenever the instructor told me to stop at the middle of a high slope. i'll feel super high (not that mabok high okay). last night was heavenly heaven. as said: nothing feels like heaven than having to spend the lovely night with preetyboy under the ever-twinkling stars. oh, did you see the crescent moon? lovely crescent, lovely them stars. as usual, we did some catch-ups on our life and how things have really leave us with absolutely nothing, but only question marks. oh yes, we need to constantly remind each other every single night that we do love each other and that we need each other's company; no matter how busy we are. too sweet, i know. and today alone, news have been reaching my ears about accidents involving teenagers and bikes. well actually, those kind of news have been dropping by my ears since weeks ago; but i chose to ignore and leave it to god. the thing is, sometimes it really do break my heart seeing how young someone has to leave the world. and at that moment of time i would try to put myself in the shoes of the victim's families and try to figure the pains and tears they have to go through. what's more: majority of the victims are around my age, or maybe a year or two older. still, it really do shoot right here in my head that "deaths don't recognize age" (as said by a pitas user). as much as you are concern about my safety, here i am concern about my safety too. and ofcourse, my bf's safety too. i mean, i don't blame those teenagers for having a bike license but sometimes, they have no one and absolutely nothing else to blame except for the stupid mistake they've made. if heaven is on their side, they will only suffer from minor injuries but what if heaven is totally not on their side? try to figure this out: the girlfriend, who is still in ICU, has yet to know that her bf has passed away. how would one such pity gf react upon receiving the news? to rub more salt to the wounds, i once overcame a blogger user - saying how great she feels whenever her best guyfriend sped his way. not only that, if i could recall, she was expressing her moments when her guyfriend actually 'praa' his way after being challenged by another rider. she felt great, by the way. look at those: aren't they inviting danger? those are the kind of people i hold grudges on. i don't mind them having bike as a form of transport; but what bothers me is them having bike for a totally different reason and purpose. what a pain, seriously. i won't deny the fact that we do overcome riders who tried their utmost best to show off their ohsocool bike to us while on road. and usually these riders have their girlfriend as their pillion. who cares if the rider (sometimes together with the girlfriend) stared at us and 'praa' hard - indicating that they're asking for a race? for once, im glad that my preetyboy has a brain. look, if you are really deprive of love, please find it somewhere else; and if you are deprive of any death moments, by all means, do it yourself and don't involve others. but in other cases, riders are not totally to be blame. that is exceptional; and it's normal for people to curse the driver if things like that happen. even i do that. so you see, i am doing a lot of thinking lately. silence don't mean im plain lazy. how's that? *grin That's It For Today. Goodbye.
Sunday, May 28, 2006 2:44 PM ;||*pout you lips, ladies*|| i left the day yesterday with only three words in my mind - i love them. yes, sure i do. it started off pretty well and ended with an awesome laughter; a blast. met shab over at Pasir Ris mrt at 5pm. omg, im not sure if i hugged the right person. she's just so different; her face, her hair, her skin, her everything! and im loving it. love, i got to say this - u've lose weight, not gain weight, so don't be too afraid to eat MORE. in the train, we talked, exchanged opinion, laughed, giggled, agreeing with each other and ofcourse, to complete it all, we sure did a little gossip. amazingly, we both do think alike - how someone can really changed into a total different person when compared to what that someone used to be. it's a sad thing rather than something which you can be proud of, get it? love wanted to buy new pumps and get rid of her old white slip-on; infact, she couldn't wait to make that slip-on sit in the bin. hahaa. and i, wanted to buy the Topshop's top that i saw online. it was a pretty thing, i swear. but when it comes to the price, it sure wasn't a pretty thing to see. $49 for a simple top like that - so i passed them and went over to the lingerie corner. those boxers were too hot, ouch! yet i didn't know why i did not purchase them. grr. walked out of Wisma with an empty hand; and headed to Far East instead to get love's pumps. showed her a couple of Mondo's pumps but too bad, they did not have any nice white pumps. walked around and i saw this sweet pumps - white and black flowers all over. the even sweeter thing about it was that shab loved that pumps; so she bought it. :D went over to Dotti and that's when aisha came over. my love love! finally, it was time for dinner! settled at Rose Garden - hokkien mee for me, chicken rice for both the love love and char kuey as the side dish. yum! ate to over fill and we left that place feeling too bloated. aisha almost wanted to puke everything out - just like how celebrities always do, and i couldn't stop rubbing my bloated stomach. shab? she couldn't care less and was too engrossed in her touch-up moments. hehe. walked around again to complete my mission, that is to get a top. and ta-daa, after much walking around, aisha saw this white with brown lace top and she showed it to me. i, on the other hand, fall in love with the top at first sight and decided to try it on. another pretty thing NOT to be passed; so i bought it. thank you my love aisha! now, the mission has completed and there i was, one happy happy bird! our legs were crying for help so we decided to take a break over at McCafe. i told myself - no more food or heavy drink for today. they bought banana and chocolate milkshake for themselves. i admit: it was tempting though but i know my stomach couldn't take anything more. what else? camwhore!
yours truly, shab and aisha. *wink wink
told you, their drinks were too tempting that i had to walk over my own words. grr. now, time for my utmost favourite part of the day - pout your lips, ladies!
story behind the pouting lips: i couldn't stop laughing at shab for her very funny act. shab had difficulties pouting her lips, so what exactly she did was to hold a small mirror in front of her face and pouted her lips. she insisted that aisha should count to three before snapping our picture; so that at the count of three, she could hold her mirror down and maintained that pouted lips until the camera snapped our picture. her first try was hilarious, and we even made a caption for that pic - look look! im pouting my lips, is it okay? hahaaa. over time, she was getting pretty much excited and kept telling us to do the pouting lips again and again. i swear darling, your small mirror was way distracting that i couldn't even pose for a picture. i couldn't help but laughed all the way, till tears rolled down my cheeks okay. ho ho ho.
shab: check me out! dirah: too tempting! aisha: i know know! *laugh*
shab: kiss me, kiss me! preetyboy came afterwards to pick me up but too bad, he was being forced by us to take atleast a picture of us together-gether. sorry baby!  to round up my Saturday with them, i personally loves this photo. so paparazzi-ish eh?
i know. love love, we should do a get-together again some time in next month okay? love you all. and to my preetyboy, ofcourse i love you more, double! remember? ;D That's It For Today. Goodbye.
Friday, May 26, 2006 11:32 PM ;||*grab that marshmallow please*|| CCN day didn't quite turn out like what we expected. in fact, engineering was not at all exciting as it used to be two years ago. but who cares? as long as i got my chocolate-dipped marshmallow, im contented enough. nothing much caught my attention except for this self-designed shoes designed by the design students. hahaa, too much of the word 'design' in one sentence la. but anyway, it was really classic, but the price was quite unreasonable. so we walked off after saying a sincere 'thank you'. why didn't they have Burger Ramli last how they used to have a year ago? why oh why. their brownies with ice-cream topping somehow looked appetizing but my heart kept saying 'move on. you'll find a better brownies.' yelah tu! for the first half, i walked around with syasya and nurul. after some time, they got tired and decided to buy as many food as they could and sit around somewhere to eat. and me, on the other hand, decided not to indulge those food with them; instead, i walked around AGAIN with preetyboy. can you imagine how tiring it was? after much walking around, we ended up resting at the far end of design school. only me and him, and noone else. sweet eh, aku tahu! since panata's digicam was with me, i thought why not i make good use of it and snap a couple or two of our faces. hahaaa! buat macam camera sendiri la eh!
syasya called me up and insisted that i should come over to the plaza and meet her so that we could take some pictures there. oh great!
and they turned out to be pretty freaking not nice? i bet. and it was all thanks to this boy: my preetyboy.
he did those when we told them to take a picture of us. lesson learnt: next time, don't ask an UNtalented someone to snap a picture for you, okay?
That's It For Today. Goodbye.
10:53 PM ;||*face the reality*|| i don't know if im just paranoid or anything. i sense something fishy - and you should know better. but girlfriend, i think you owe me a story; or rather an explanation. i'll keep waiting till you think it is the right time to tell me. That's It For Today. Goodbye.
Wednesday, May 24, 2006 10:03 PM ;||*our little bubble of bliss*|| i keep wondering: what was it with life? you could have the best intentions, work as hard as you could to solve things and heal things and make them work but sometimes it just wasn't enough; sometimes it was as though life had its own stubborn plan that it was going to carry out whether you liked it or not. maybe, that was the way it was supposed to be. snap! if i were given a chance to choose between spending my day at school or at home, i would prefer the latter one. you know why, because i think at the rate im going, no doubt i will gain weight, rather than throw away those fats. take yesterday as an example. goodness, i can't believe i did canteen-hopping: simply because Breadboard's western is not even close to perfection, and the price was so unreasonable for that kind of presentation; so we hopped to Flavours for better food. and you should know what that means - we have just wasted our money. preetyboy is the reason why im cheerful these days. he is the reason why there's a floral softness to my face. and he is the reason to the redness in my cheeks. lately, everything was almost funny; everything felt blurry, as if the rest of the world was out of focus, unimportant. just me and him, in our little bubble of bliss, finally realising and expressing how much we cared for each other. we couldn't stop smelling each other. it was magnetic, i swear. every so often we'd break off and tease each other and smile at each other, but soon we found the nose attracted to the neck, pleasant and addictive. i admit, i couldn't stop touching him (more to harassing him, i guess) till he had to keep reminding me that any supervisor might just step out of their office without us realising it. ah! i wanted to take him home and eat him, really. and tomorrow is yet our day, since he has to work on Friday night. need me to say this: i can't wait! like finally, i am a part of youtube. to jepon, hope you really really enjoy watching those videos i've submitted and to panata, here's to our Hair Plaiter. cheers! so guys out there, you can stop wondering why your gf took so long the moment you let her off to the ladies. hahaa. then again, im proud to be here in miw.com. check this out under 'what is the one thing you wish a guy will do for you?': muka aku la! click [here] wah wah wah. and i can't believe the msn girlfriends out there are enjoying my presence. sigh. everything was being so nice to me. everything i wanted was coming true, but unexpected. i almost wanted a bird to poo on my head or something, just to make me feel i wasn't in a dream. still, i was flattered by heaven's goodwill. but i guess for now, i had to tuck that into the back of my mind for later: for now i had to think of a new layout for my blog. ;D pink and yellow, anyone? That's It For Today. Goodbye.
Tuesday, May 23, 2006 11:58 PM ;||*pout that lips ladies*|| you don't have anything to lose, those words seem so simple; yet too heavy and complicated. but anyway, thank god my Konica Minolta did not explode on me - it's more to the batteries died on me. and again, thank god i brought its charger along. how smart. :D first stop, the swimming session.
wow wow. keep it going ladies. second stop, the sparkling session.
woops. get tipsy sweets! third stop, the gaming session.
as you can see, i was being bullied by them to keep rearranging the 'UNO Stacko' every after it toppled. how unfair! forth stop, those bedok78 boys took the 'laughing gas' and made a fool of themselves. boy, how tipsy can they get? tsk!
(that pic was taken by adeq cause i was happily enjoying my sleep) fifth stop, the don't-sleep-if-not-you-kental session.
now i know how tough it is just to get three faces crushed as one. (shakes head) and oh, seeing how much she adores her cutiemat really carves a smile on my face; although at times i keep telling her to concentrate on her studies first. i guess, we all need love to add sparkles into our life. im not to blame, you're not to blame. love is afterall beautiful.
+++++ got home at 10.30 on Sunday morning, and damn it, i had to attend my cousin's wedding. oh boy, im talking about really really really close cousin - by hook or by crook, i have to make my way there, no choice. i could have sworn that i almost fall asleep while standing. so i told adeq to accompany me somewhere at another void deck so that i could atleast get my 5mins nap. but well, those cousins could not stop disturbing us; there goes our nap. grr.
pout that lips, kak dahlia. and ofcourse, im going to leave you my dear readers with nothing but more pictures.
simply because, im feeling too lethargic for more words. i might even resort to using both my thumbs and index fingers to open up my heavy eyes - but i rather let the bed swallow me up. you know what i mean. goodnight. That's It For Today. Goodbye.
Monday, May 22, 2006 11:58 PM ;||*never be replaced*|| im slowly catching up with every thing; and i mean, every single thing. yet again, i can't believe that things are moving this fast that i can hardly catch up with them. face the fact - i can't even find the perfect time to update my blog; let alone posting an entry. worst; one month has passed and i've yet to catch up with the simplest thing about my project.
if i had one wish, i would wish for you and me - to be together even at the toughest time. the toughest, toughest, toughest ever! just hold my hand and lead me. That's It For Today. Goodbye.
Friday, May 19, 2006 5:01 PM ;||*all the good things will never end*|| i can't wait for the tawn-ing; because of these listed reasons: That's It For Today. Goodbye.
Thursday, May 18, 2006 12:03 AM ;||*move it; that way*|| okay children, party's over! get back to work darlings. since i won't be home on the upcoming Friday, Saturday and Sunday, i might as well make good use of the time i have now to just update; and nothing else. to those readers who waited patiently for the Mother's Day pictures to be uploaded, good news: they're up! scroll down to that entry yah. i was browsing through my phone when i realised i've been keeping outdated pictures; so i told myself: why not i upload them here? wouldn't that be worthwhile?
random thoughts: as a tutor, i should at least post a picture or two of my kids. look, i don't mind having a slow student, as long as she has the determination to work harder, i am proud. i was almost moved to tears when my kid asked me this: sister, are you disappointed with my mathematic result? and i went with a straight yes. i'm disappointed that you did not show great improvement; and that you did not try to apply all those methods i taught you, i claimed. soon, i heard some sniffing sound. omg, she was crying. good thing was that she tried so hard not to let me see her tears, that explained why she was looking down most of the time. i pretended not to see her tears; i pretended i didn't hear her sniffing sound; i pretended everything was fine, but deep inside i knew she was very much disturbed by my comments. and i, was very much disturbed too. sorry honey, i had to do that for your own good. one day, you'll come to realise that since the day i set my foot in your house, they're only good intentions i bring along. :D
now, she's motivated and determined to do well; i'm proud of you. just now, sweet preetyboy came all the way to my void deck so that he could washed his bike with me. sweeter. i had to fill up two big pails with water; nevermind, dad's the one paying the bill. hahaaa! oh, apart from that, i had fun washing his bike for him; while he, on the other hand, had fun video-ing my every move.
"you see, here's my baby washing the bike for me. so sweet." That's It For Today. Goodbye.
Wednesday, May 17, 2006 4:57 PM ;||*the nails are purple; not my colour*|| im very much touched at the moment. at least people do see the good side of me; afterall. last night, the love lady messaged me; and of course i was very very happy. it's been quite some time we last exchanged messages, let alone meeting up. you see, love lady has been my childhood friend since the day we were in primary school; followed up to secondary school and that was when we got even closer. i love her - especially back then when we happened to be in the same house colour; everything about me was about her and everything about her was about me. two brown house girls couldn't be separated. how sweet, i know. plus the part where i couldn't stop going to her house almost everyday after school. that was a whole lot of fun love lady. so there.. she text-ed me: babe, i was thinking if you wanna go town one day with me and aisha? love lady, you don't know how happy i was the moment i read your message, eventhough it was at 11.45pm. you should know too that i AM looking forward for that outing; me, you and aisha. im sure we're going to crap alot and have fun all day long; plus you have yet to know the true story behind the word 'kental' hahaaa! so love lady, next Saturday it shall be! to my dear aisha, pretty please tell your boss that you have two girlfriends to meet, urgently. im sure he won't mind you not coming to work next Saturday and instead, come and meet us. ;p but then again, you got to put up a very very sweet smile, so that your boss will say 'alright, you can take a leave miss' even before you start pleading. gee! i will leave you for now.. goodday! That's It For Today. Goodbye.
Tuesday, May 16, 2006 3:48 PM ;||*tell me; gayish or what?*|| im wondering: is there really a need for you to act like some son of a bitch just because she's your oh beautiful as ever girlfriend? i feel sorry for this particular bastard who's trying his utmost best to either just impress his oh beautiful as ever girlfriend or simply and plainly has nothing better to do but to stick his nose in other people's affair (in this case, MY affair). boy, how different are you from other gays? yah, i personally think you're a gay cause you see, the thing is, you looked like a total idiot from other planet with that so-called boy's version of tank top. maybe, you could take my suggestion: walk in any Topman outlet, and browse through their tops. maybe you'll be amazed at how a long sleeve shirt can make you not look like a gay if you try to unbutton everything with your so called boy's version of tank top underneath. it's just a suggestion, you know. you can either take it or leave it. or worst, probably it'll be wonderful if your oh beautiful as ever girlfriend can help you get that sense of fashion. kata girlfriend boyfriend, mestilah kene share fashion sense kan? anyway, this is too sidetrack. look, you're too much do you know that? as far as i could remember, i did nothing that affect you. absolute nothing. so what was those fucking hell all about? trying to act sehati sejiwa with oh beautiful as ever girlfriend? hands down. you're such a shame and a pain in my ass, really. instead of trying to figure out how mad i am when every morning i looked hideously slutty in the mirror, maybe you should try to figure out what kind of a jerk you are each time you passed by a mirror. boy, you should really really wake up and start figuring out how far back you are. time lambat la boy. to make things worst for you, i feel disgusted for you for having a girl smoker as your other half. ew! dektu pun time lambat la dey! you see boy, thank you for making your life difficult for yourself; you ask for it. and oh boy, you messed up with the wrong girl. too bad im not your girly-girly-just-let-it-be victim. and see, i won't guarantee you'll be let off THAT free. your retribution is on the way; i promise you that. revenge is afterall sweet; so is payback time! p/s: i don't need any comments who's trying to show that you or YOU are trying to defend your so called jerk here. save it. it'll benefit you, really. "so don't you go embarrassing him no more". for now, i want to go weak on my knees to squad and laugh out really loud seeing at how gay-ish you looked in that so-called boy's version of tank top (for you, i supposed it's a singlet right? hahaaaaa) That's It For Today. Goodbye.
Monday, May 15, 2006 11:36 PM ;||*feel it*|| i really feel guilty for not posting a real mother's day entry. afterall, she is the one who keeps tolerating with me for the past eighteen years; and still am. :D mother's day was spent wisely at downtown east's Sakura. nothing is much more heavenly than having all (and i truly mean ALL) the food to yourself - people like me will definitely benefit more. hahaaa! looking back, i still couldn't believe that i actually ate alot and that my stomach was amazingly converted to a big container. boy, who is the mother here? gee. one food after another; never shy to grab all, and the mouth couldn't stop munching like there's no tomorrow. adding to it, mom couldn't stop stuffing her three daughters with food that she grabbed until the younger one went: mom, i think you should eat instead of going all the way to the buffet area and grabbed food for us. look, the younger one was doing the talking la dey! and oh, just before we went down to Sakura, the three daughters surprised her with a Bonia purse. just imagine: a woman/girl's bestfriend will always be the diamond, clothes, handbags and shoes. for those who's still slow up there, purse unfortunately fall under the category of handbags. so there you go; one happy mother jumping around after which followed by kisses for her three daughters to show that she was totally pleased with the present. and yup, the round up everything, photos were taken (as usual).
for today, we have a birthday boy here.
HAPPY 20th BIRTHDAY, din! That's It For Today. Goodbye.
Sunday, May 14, 2006 10:36 PM ;||*a laughter a day keeps the worries away*|| goodness. i can't believe i slept my laughter away yesterday. ok, give me the honour to share it with you. i was chatting away with panata and nassier yesterday night when i came to a decision - let's play teka-teki instead of crapping. amazingly, those two munkys were damn excited so i got the ball rolling first. excuse me for the upcoming malay words. to those who don't understand, kindly please ask your malay friend to translate it for you. thank you very much! :D first scene dirah: ok, i start first. banyak-banyak ikan, ikan ape yang masuk dalam jaring dulu? nassier: (with much confidence) aku tahu! ikan bawal masak dalam asam pedas. dirah: (laughing away) kepala otak kau! nanti aku suruh mak kau masak kan kau ikan tu OK. panata: (laughing away) ok ape? dirah: sya, don't step 'ok ape'. kau pun mesti teka la! panata: tsk! ikan bilis la. dirah: (laughing away) tangkap ikan bilis pakai jaring ape! ok, the answer is.. nassier and panata: what? dirah: kepala ikan! hahaaaa. nassier: dirah..aku kan, tak suka tau maki orang malam-malam gini. panata: diam la dirah! second scene: nassier: ok ok, my turn. banyak-banyak buah, buah ape ade gigi? dirah: (again, with utmost confidence) aku tahu! buah durian! panata: hahaaa. dirah, kau diam. dirah: tsk! ok fine. sya, teka la! panata: alah! im not good in this la. okaylah, ikan bilis lagi la.. dirah: (the laughter gets crazier) ikan bilis kepala otak kau! nassier: ikan bilis ade tulang ape! panata: fine la, what's the answer? nassier: B U A / ... dirah: oh wait, aku tahu! seseorang yang makan buah sekali gigi palsu dia ter-stuck pat buah tu. nassier: ok, kau diam sekarang. panata: dirah! nassier: B U A / ... dirah: oh, buaya! nassier: pandai pun! dirah is one point ahead of syasya. syasya, you need to work hard. dirah: merepek! third scene: panata: ok next! dirah: next kepala otak kau! kau punya turn la kasi. panata: tsk! im not good in this la. dirah: ok ok, let's give him your teka-teki. panata: which one? dirah: nassier, banyak-banyak card, card ape yang boleh bebual? panata: ah yes! banyak-banyak card, card ape yang boleh bebual? cepat! nassier: hi card! dirah: (laughing away) hi card kasi si dektu OK. panata: hahaaa. nassier: eh, at least dia boleh cakap hi ape! dirah: ok give up. answer eh? nassier: no! korang nak kenekan aku kan? wait. aku nak cari pat dictionary. panata: give up la nassier. dirah: dictionary? ape je! nassier: ok fine, ape? dirah: syasya, tell him the answer. panata: kat-ijah! hahahaaaa. nassier: da dirah, kau pergi tido pun cantik la! katijah otak korang la. stupid shit! maybe we should try it again; this time around with preetyboy. maybe he could add more laughter to it. afterall, my preetyboy always make me laugh. love him la! anyway, to all mothers out there: HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY! dearest mom, thank you for being the sweetest person in my life. you know, nothing is better than you. nothing is perfect than you. and nothing is complete without you. here i am, your very second daughter, would like to show you her greatest gratitude by giving you a Bonia purse. mom, i do hope you love it. That's It For Today. Goodbye.
Saturday, May 13, 2006 11:31 PM ;||*mary had a little pony*|| the day was spent wisely with preetyboy; and i love it. he brought me to Pasir RIs park to look at those pony. sweet right, i know. check this out: 10 lessons will cost you only $400. how cheap is that (i mean compared to the one with membership over at other area la)? tell me, who don't want to ride a pony and be certified?
aint they the cutest thing? i told preetyboy i want to owe a stable and a pony when we're married and you know, he said this: b, i rather buy a motorbike with that money. tsk! he can be sweet at one moment; and a meanie in a second. hmmph. +++++ things are changing; for you and me. it's either for the best or for the worst - i don't know. you've said yours; im glad. still, there are things you should try to overlook. like you've said: we don't see our own mistake, the one closest to us is the one who see our mistake and will give us some advice. it's up to us to either choose to ignore it or simply take it in hand. baby, you're right. but how special are you? if you try to talk to my heart and ask how much i love you, it will proudly tell you that i love you very, very much. i just wonder if we sat down and i could tell you all these things to your face, and you could tell me everything..because i do love you, i can't tell you how much. preetyboy, you have always been someone in my heart. someone who truly appreciates me for who i am. someone who never gives up; no matter how stubborn and irritating i seem to be. someone who can really show me the true meaning of life and the true meaning of pure love. someone who i can depend on in years to come. in one way or another, you make everything happen. baby, i think the key is simply good communication. being honest and saying exactly what we feel. the moment we start withholding things and burying them beneath the surface, it creates a wall between us that gets bigger every day, until one day we realise we can't see over the top. thus preetyboy, we shall make a promise today - we will keep communicating with each other, no matter how occupied we are. :D much better. oh, in case you're wondering sweetheart, i love you still. That's It For Today. Goodbye.
Friday, May 12, 2006 9:45 PM ;||*grinding queen tells it all*|| you know the feeling of vaguely aware that someone was following you? you know what it's like when you get that itchy feeling; you're convinced someone is on your trail and images from Crimewatch flash across your mind, but when you look back nervously all you can see are crowds of normal people or there's just no one behind you and you feel stupid and paranoid? it happened to me while i was walking home from where preetyboy dropped me off yesterday. i swear i feel like taking off my pumps and run home; but that will only make me feel more stupid. i took the stairs instead of the lift; ok, im only staying on the 2nd storey, what's the big deal huh? diam hor. about yesterday... seriously, i was getting really impatient waiting for preetyboy's friends. they took more than 30minutes, mind you; and i couldn't stop bugging preetyboy to keep calling them and ask where they are exactly, hah! soon, six guys came; bagusla, aku sorang perempuan ape! the crowd was awesome, really. no doubt that it was filled with malays; say 95%? as usual, being the Rompe fanatic, i was waiting patiently for the DJ to drop it like it's hot. and preetyboy couldn't stop asking me to do my thang, and i went: i want Rompe! ok, sounds stupid but really, that song can just get me moving; shaking; grinding and whatever you may call it. so, like finally at 11.45pm, the DJ played that song; and oh, before that he went: yeah yeah yeah! ladies, you go nanana nanana nana na, and boys, you go rompe rompe rompe rompe! and then the crowd went wild, so was i..hahaaa.
this is the fuming part; i was about to get myself involved when my phone beeped and it was mom, asking me if i've eaten. i went back in, and seconds later, the phone beeped again. mom. god, can you please stop torturing me at this wild hours? and she went: don't be home late okay? i couldn't help saying yes mom, don't you worry so much okay? i promise to eat your rice once i get home okay? mom, don't call me too often okay, cause im afraid i can't pick up your call. fine, she sounded disappointed, but oh well. so i went back in again, and i supposed, from the way the bouncer looked at me each time i went in and out, he might think i probably suffered from doorlover since i can't stop pushing and pulling that heavy door. hahaaa! (mom do care about me and yes, she loves me, still. im proud that you're my mom.) the second time i went it, i only managed to catch the last part of the song; i was, obviously, mad at myself. without giving a fucking care, i grind with preetyboy and boy, he was shocked. since that grinding thing, he couldn't stop bugging me; asking how the hell did i know how to grind and how the fuck did i know how to dance that well. i put a halt to everything and went: i was once a malay dancer, remember? ok, that was a stupid one, dirah. i thought. but malay dance don't teach you how to grind, he claimed. great, so he knew how stupid i was, hahaaa. baby, it doesn't matter. probably i was made to dance. i tried to assure him, but it didn't work out. that kept him going; reminding me over and over again not to grind with anyone, except him. yes of course, darling. :D as promised, i got home and ate the rice. read this: funny how i was insanely happy one minute and guilt-ridden the next. it was amazing that mom hadn't noticed, but i suspected that she, like me, hadn't wanted to see through everything. it's always easier to believe in fantasy, to tell yourself lies. don't you think so? anyway, to my dearest preetyboy; i miss you so much, do you know that? this is crazy cause i suddenly found myself sniffing my right palm, surprised enough to catch a whiff of your scent on my palm and it made me want to rush to your home and hug you. but then, a second later, the scent had vanished into thin air. i kept sniffing my palm, trying to bring it back, but i couldn't. and an hour ago, i was busily checking out on our photo album. do you know that each photo taken actually brings back all those sweet memories and all the things we've shared together? awesome. despite the cold shoulder i gave you just now, i just want you to know that no matter what, i do love you and i want every single thing about you. i admit; i can't live without you. just like how a newborn kangaroo cling in its mother's pouch, i need you. diabetes anyone? ;p why is growing up all about giving up? why is adulthood all about replacing fantasy and dreams with reality, and hope with cynicism? That's It For Today. Goodbye.
Thursday, May 11, 2006 2:04 PM ;||*get the party started, bumps*|| listen hard to this announcement: for the first time in six months (i think), i took a bus to school. right, what's the BIG deal then? the BIG deal is that, noone left me with any money this morning..urgh. so i have to dig for coins in that huge vase which dad uses to keep all his one-dollar and fifty-cent coins. omg, hopefully adeq don't read this entry; cause if she knows that i silently went to that vase for coins, she will surely scream at me. hahaaaa. apart from that, i forgot all about having to go to school by myself yesterday night before i fall asleep. thus, i only woke up when panata called me and went: oi, bangan oi! da kul 7.05 ni. fuck! only then i realised that actually, i have to wake up at 6.30am so that i can catch the early bus to school. so i called preetyboy: b, im late. i was supposed to wake up at 6.30, but now it's already 7.05am. how? you wake up okay? i need to take a bath like now. and then the line went off. luckily, ive ironed my top and bottom the night before. and in 15, something happened to me that left me with such a paisei face. stupid bus driver winked at me when i paid $1.30 for the bus fare. what? never see girls before is it?! that's not just it; i hate it when bus drivers have to step hard on the brake. freak! apparently, i was stucked in that kind of bus and what's more; i was standing; the bus was so packed(as always); and i, have no sense of balance. yes, i tend to react a bit more than everyone else whenever a bus comes to a halt; even the mrt. sheesssh! i swear that i almost felt like banging onto anyone who are unlucky enough to be standing next to me whenever the bus comes to an immediate stop. it was cool seeing at how i tried my very best to keep my legs glued to the bottom and if possible, i feel like squashing that pole i was holding and depending on to. can you see how much the very little sense of balance does harm to me? depressing, i swear! at this one point of time, unfortunately, i almost caused the guy beside me to bang on to the person beside him and probably, if i were to exert a little bit more force, the banging game could have last till to the very first person standing at the front door. ok, im a lil bit exaggerating here. so anyway, i banged hard on to the guy beside me, causing myself to make a 90degree turn from the pole where i was holding on to. mak oi, paisei sia. as usual, i will pretend nothing happened; eventhough i felt as it everyone could see through my thick skin; worst, i just wished the ground could swallow me up. to make things worst, it didn't just end there: i alighted at the wrong bustop, when i was supposed to alight at the west gate since i have to clock in at blk24. feeling silly, i called panata and told her everything and girl, thank you very much la eh for making me feel worst. :-\ since i have nothing better to do during school hours (apart from non-stop eating, often self-break and surfing the net), i did some quiz that i think are worth my time. peepsy peeps, check this out.
as you can see, i won't deny the fact that im high on almost everything except envy. oh well, i can't seem to be able to control my envy, who's fault is that? Nadirah & Farhan 85% Compatible Nadirah and Farhan have been romantically-together for a long time. That alone demonstrates a degree of compatibility. Similar personality descriptions are a plus. The fact that Farhan smokes could be an issue. They both abstain from drinking, so that helps compatibility. A mismatch in athleticism could decrease compatibility. Their astrological signs are in harmony, though, which is a plus. And their views on children are similar. Overall, Nadirah and Farhan are highly compatible. They are capable of having a beautiful relationship together. awww...another sweet stuff for those who escaped from getting diabetes after reading my previous previous entry. hahaaaa! tonight tonight, i can't wait. Rompe kepe? heh! That's It For Today. Goodbye.
Wednesday, May 10, 2006 8:58 PM ;||*take the lead; never follow*|| dearest boyfriend, if ever a day you find me all silence, please don't ever assume that i've found a replacement. well maybe, this newfound addiction is too irresistible that i could have sworn i can't take my eyes of it. Liz Friedlander's is definitely my cup of tea. and dear baby, i don't mind spending all my quality time on him; it's too tempting. you know darling, you can't blame anyone for putting me in this state cause you have only yourself to blame for bringing Liz Friedlander to me. on the other side, i am very thankful to have you as my baby.
lesson learnt: never expect things to go your way, always. That's It For Today. Goodbye.
Tuesday, May 09, 2006 11:16 PM ;||*sweet, sweeter and the sweetest*|| some soul out there forced me to update my blog; i feel great. cause it makes me even more confident that somehow somewhere out there, i do have a regular reader afterall. thank you. as a matter of fact, today's entry will be a lil bit sweeter. so dear reader, if you cant take in much sweet due to a high level of sugar, im telling you now, take your leave; but for those who thinks that sweet stuff will make you a little bit hyper and active, you got me. it's been days since we last took pictures of us; the loveable eccentricities, and i believe: once you click, you will never stop.
some sweet things to share: you know, when i first met preetyboy, i had the notion that love lasted for ever. but seeing how young married couple handles their marriage, consequently, i had always thought that marriages had to end with firework explosion too: violence and custody battles. flipping the coin, witnessing how my parents maturely handles their marriage, i was very much touched. they've made me discovered that love could slowly dilute over the years into a sense of companionship that was survivable; but ultimately unsatisfying; that i cannot expect my other half to return me back the same amount of love i shower him with. it has been more than 3years we are together and frankly, im losing my balance, causing me to keep clinging on to him for dear life. and now, i found myself loving him too deep that i didn’t want to let him go. i want our love story to continue and i want my very own children to witness how loving their parents are; just like how i witness the love between mom and dad. :D awwww. and yes, i won't deny the fact that msn is helping me to get closer to niniee: oh, how sweet. and because of this babe, i know that Massari exists. and also because of this love love darling, i know what will happen when girls see hot stuff. we said it here. so girls out there who think you know the definition of 'hot stuff', check out the video clip on the left side. somehow, i think we do share a chemistry; me and niniee. things that happen between us are always similar. our thoughts always cross each other's. now, you might be shock if i were to tell you this: we've never met each other before. everything was from blogging world. im getting sweeter; i know. :D but the sweetest thing you've yet to know is that, those boys (preetyboy and romano) helped me chose to buy nail polish. hahaaa..
for every love you give me, you take another piece of my pain. That's It For Today. Goodbye.
Sunday, May 07, 2006 3:53 PM ;||*trip over a glass of wine*|| friday night has always been better than the previous previous friday; and im loving it. nothing beats than getting myself a new top over at bugis. baby, now we can wear similar top (stripes, here we come!). oh, don't be jealous, you out there..hahaaa. brownies with vanilla ice-cream as its topping together with dashes of caramel finally manage to steal our intimate moments away. we were simply enjoying ourselves, indulging in the awesome delicious BugisCafe's brownies. fuh! we thought, the night is still young so we went up to Esplanade for more of our intimate moments. ok fine, im getting those chills; let's just stick to umm..being together, shall we? watched the performance at the Waterfront and that's when i got a lil high and crazy. even preetyboy couldn't help and laughed at me, at the same pity me for being such a joker. i feel his love, that matters.
he refused to take pictures with flash, so i listened to him and just stick to no-flash. pardon us for that mysterious picture. (points finger at preetyboy) his fault, not mine. gee. yesterday, i round up my Saturday with a heavy and sumptuous late dinner, or supper (maybe?) with a whole bunch of cousins at Kampung Chai Chee. at first, everyone was keen on sticking to fork and spoon; we couldn't face another night of dirty fingers. soon after, the chili crab came and everyone was tempted to dump their fork and spoon. towards the middle, my younger sister couldn't help feeling 'urgh, damn you crab', so she started to give up and put aside her fork and spoon. i turned to her and those jealousy was surrounding me. i picked up my crab and put it on dad's plate and went: dad please help me. thank you. oh, don't worry. apparently, dad enjoys kopek-ing any food for his daughters, even to the extend of peeling the skin of a prawn. now you can see how pampered his daughters are? well well well, no comments. next, dad started to dump his fork and spoon. followed by me; then the older sis; then momma; then the cousins; then the aunties; and then the uncles. and soon, no one was using fork and spoon. but atleast, those determination to crack open the crab shell using fork and spoon did last a few minutes, or so. hahaa. we were entertained and startled with a 5seconds of total blackout. pause, or you'll choke on tiny pieces of crab shell. haha, funny shit. that left me with a very, very bloated stomach. omg, i feel HUGE. soon after, we watched the results of the voting. kecoh kecoh kecoh. and everybody started teasing my momma for being one of the rejected votes under Pasir Ris/Punggol PAP. they went: ok, if PAP lost by 1 vote, you know it's your mom's work. or if 101 votes were rejected, that extra 1 must be your mom. mom, i do pity you but sometimes i couldn't help but to join in the laughter. sleeping with heavy stomach sometimes leave me with a guilty feeling. i don't want to be like..ok, at least panata and me did think alike afterall. somebody's growing fatter, and we're afraid we will end up like that brag. touch wood, touch wood. but those guilty feeling doesn't lead us to anywhere; instead the more guilty we are, the more food we tend to grab. somebody, stop us. and it's a flattering thing to get comment from preetyboy, saying that ive lose some weight. stick to that dirah. don't ever ever you let him take back his words. oh please. apart from that, towards the night, my Saturday was round up with some disappointment that i don't wish to talk about. to my love love niniee, you've been such a sweetheart. thank you. :D ah, at this time of the month, i hate these cramps. fuck. adding to it, what a time of the day you chose to karaoke. you sounded more like yelling for help rather than karaoke-ing. gotta check it out which one of my neighbour is making a fool out of herself. god, spare me and forgive me for being such a kpo ass. i just want to be with you; and nothing else. and im depending on you to make things better..can you? That's It For Today. Goodbye.
Thursday, May 04, 2006 9:21 PM ;||*kick off my pumps*|| oh, im proud to say that i am feeling the excitement of having Major Project at out butts. not too much reason to support it; just five will do. so.. one, for what my mind thinks, nothing is better than getting to meet your other half early in the morning and after a tiring day at school. yup, im enjoying his company. baby, our love story is still on the road - how fun! two, someone created a name for me although that name seems a bit..weird. i shall say, the birth of narnini. that's it. as much as you think narnini doesn't a bit sounded like nadirah, i too am wondering what the hell does narnini mean. you know, i feel as though that name belongs to one of the Lion King's cub - i don't know, or worst, it sounded Indian-ish hahaaa. thus, i matimati told him to find me another name since he cannot pronounce my name, you see.. Eve had two, Adam had none, and everyone has three. What is it? says: welcome aboard nini and goodbye narnini. much better! three, i don't know why but i seem to enjoy looking at the crowd during clock in and ouh, especially during clock out time. and there, i seriously think that the first soul in the queue must either be too kiasu (who probably had been waiting since 5pm - who knows?) or that soul volunteered to open the front door at 5.30pm. four, my project is all about facing the comp from a freaking 9am to 5pm (apart from working with Visual Studio, ofcourse!) which means, i have the luxury to use the internet for all i want and no one is going to stop me, fuh! that explains why there can't be a day you can't find YouTube window on my screen and msn. yes, for those who have been seeing me on msn lately, you can stop wondering why i often appear as online. great pleasure huh?
five, and because of being online everyday, i am getting closer to love love niniee! fetish for green, fetish for brown. one ting tong soul reading, one stereo soul typing. i won't stop laughing i swear. boon keng still on right? gee. That's It For Today. Goodbye.
Monday, May 01, 2006 11:59 PM ;||*over the moon*|| the last time i ate was at 5.30pm. and right now, my stomach feels so empty (and slim). i need food to feed myself to bed. urgh. and the parents are still outside, and will only be back at 1am. how? told mum to buy me Chai Chee Restaurant's Mee Goreng Seafood basah. and wake me up if ever i fell asleep while waiting for them. on another note, can i not go to school tomorrow? our ever first assignment will be assessed tomorrow and heaven's sake, it's not working. i think there's something wrong with the codes; but i cant figure out the error. shit. how does it feel to be swallowed by the ground? any better? and the thought of having to go to school early in the morning (which means i have to wake up early) sure doesn't help a lil bit. speaking of which, ive yet to remind panata to give me a morning call in case i overslept again. hahaaa. ah! the stomach is grumbling like fuck. guess ive to start digging for food in the kitchen. oh wait, i miss my preetyboy. really miss him. come fetch me up tomorrow, busyuk! did i tell you that i love you? *wink goodnight y'all! That's It For Today. Goodbye.
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