im glad that finally i've found my true friends. i don't mind going around telling people that "oh, these two girls are my good friends." they know me better and they respect me very well. i guess friendship does take time: time to get to know each other, time to build shared memories and time to invest in each other's growth.

to be frank, im glad i've found them to share my lifes, thoughts, feelings and frustrations. they are my soul secret; the ones i share my deepest secrets with without worrying about a single a thing; the ones who tell what is right and what is wrong; the ones who try so hard to be on my side when others think so low of me. for that, i thank you girls.

because of them, i finally realised that in true friendship, unconditional love develops; and i love them.

maybe i should start to take things slow. maybe i should not just care about myself; i can change the situation but i cant stop others from saying what they like. maybe i should start realizing that all eyes are on me; those eyes that long to dig some dirty secrets from me which in the first place never exist. i don't know; i just need some distance away from people, so that they'll know that im not up to some bad deeds.

but girls, thanks for being those understanding ones. thanks for making me realise that not everyone thinks the way i think. and girls, i think im starting to get things back on track. =)

you never know what im feeling right now after what others think of me; yet i couldn't fathom why i was quite uneasy. i couldn't help feeling that all eyes were on me with questions and disgust, secretly looking at how im falling apart. those feelings are funny but you don't know how disturbing it is to me. ultimately, it hurts me even though i know that all i have to do is look on the bright side.

then again, time i stop being miserable for no good reason. im not going to live for them, but for myself.