i don't know if i should just confront you or pretend everything is perfectly fine. when everytime i feel like opening my mouth to talk things out with you, there's always something to remind me why i shouldn't. i don't want to trigger any complications and misunderstanding, that's the last thing i need from you (really). but it just hurts to think that you're doing this to me.

i don't know if you're being forced or you just chose to willingly open your mouth. but which either way it is, i don't blame you. i chose to give you my precious thing that is my trust and i chose you among all my other friends; why, you ask. i have no answer to that question.

my friend, please don't do that to me again will you?

..and today is such a hot day that we cab back to school after a heavy lunch at nurul's aunt's house. wait, tell me my face don't look any close to a monster because nurul's niece couldn't stop crying everytime he glanced around the house and happened to land his ohsobig eyes on me.




& i hope you can convince me enough that you will not rake up the past and hurt me again.