yes..i do get alot of 'alah' from people wen they get to noe that ive stopped blogging. see..eventhough my english sucks, people still do want more of me. get wad i mean?

remember that i told you i still love my farhan? and i even swear about it? right. that's so true. i love him very much that i know i cannot live without him. the same goes to him. no matter how many times he wanted to leave me or vice versa, we will always come back to each other and apologise. BUT i shouldn't take that as an advantage. who noes if one day, heaven is really not on our side? choy!

often, wen he said he cant stand me and wanted to leave me so that i can be more happy, i will always say wadever or give him this wadever attitude cos i know, with no doubt, he didn't mean it. but somehow, that day when everything's in a mess, i feel as though i AM goin to lose him if i dun do anything. somehow i feel that i will be alone if i just sit down and do nothing. u cant imagine how afraid i am. too afraid. losing him is like losing part of my life. i cant bear the pain. i really cant.

now u know how much i love him? yes i do make stupid mistakes in my life, but i never want to repeat it. i will and promise to be the best girl in his heart. this i promise you.

i even make a story about us.

one day..

mum said if i choose to be with him, then i should give in more and tolerate him. she reminded me that giving in doesn't mean u lose. it means u have patience. she is absolutely right. probably those who's in love will understand what im tryna say here.

let's get moving..

i stayed home on friday. ergh..i noe, friday was supposed to be a dating day or gurlfrens day. but i wasn't in the mood for anything, so i rather stay at home and stare at my adeq's nose. helped out mom in the kitchen because Temasek Poly was having Gemilang at 7pm and mom was asked to cook for them. tiring u noe. duit peh pasal, aku sanggup tolong. haha..dun tell me ure not like me.

and on Saturday, i went for a mini-shopping with adeq. we hit the town. yay! i wore my sunnies. so chic! i bot a bronze belt to match with my bronze sandal, and two tees. brown polka dot and a black green top. i love the polka dot, so cute! was supposed to buy a green and white stripes tee to match with fahn's, but i cant help myself. im so in love with the polka dots. it's like love at first sight. u noe u noe. sorry baby..next time okay?

settled at Bugis Cafe for our dinner. i ate their Aglio Olio set and adeq ate their Bolognese set. no fair! her's sooo much delicious than mine. ordered their Garlic Bread and their Double Chocolate cookies for our side dishes. and ya..their soup of the day was superb. corn soup. ouh well, but i still think mushroom soup is nicer. nvm.

reached home jus in time to watch Muzika Extravaganza2. ew! never feel so boring before. i mean, the show was so dull and boring. minus the fact that Azmir and Khairul were hot. their performance i mean. but their mic sucks! right? let's wait for the TAA show. im gonna decide.

and today, i went to syasya's sister's wedding at Chai Chee. i had to wear my orange kurung becos fahn wore his brown shirt. so smart la him. im impressed. haha..we're like a married couple. mum tinks so too. i'll take that as a compliment.

her sis was so pretty. then i started to imagine how's my wedding gonna be. we were supposed to give our seats to someone else afta eating, but instead, we sat and planned about our marriage. okay, u can say it's not a planning thing, erm..more to an imaginary thing? yes. haha..

deal. a black with pink words for our invitation card/wedding card. u wait okay?
*wink*

damn it! im having my Wireless quiz tomorrow and ive yet to study it. we're already at Topic3 but i swear im still lost. i dunnoe a single thing about that subject. im dead. wad do u think? shit!

gotta study now.

okay, im lying. probably later. and assignments are piling up. double shit.

till then, i love my farhan.

haha..okay, be serious. till then, im out.