i know, if i were to go home, things will just be worst. i dunwan to end up with two swollen eyes. so i forced syasya to accompany me to City Link. i want to breathe in the fresh air, i want to shop till im satisfied, i want to forget every sadness. everything.

unfortunately, the rain made me feel halfhearted. so i told syasya, im in no mood to go City Link. i rather sit down and stuff myself with foods.

settled for Sakae Sushi. nothing seems to be so interesting today. i only ate three plates of sushi and that's it, im so not in the mood to eat any longer. paid for it and headed MNG.

yes i do laugh, i do smile and i do make silly jokes. but behind all those smiles, my heart was still crying.

what's the point of heading home when i don't feel like going home? so i took a bus to yishun. don't ask me why. the long journey somehow managed to let me reflect back on all the things that ive done to deserve this. those tears are enough to tell me that i do miss him. and i fall asleep in the bus.

i was screened by two policemen today. what the fuck?! do i look like some kind of minah who enjoys making trouble outside? whatever. im so use to it anyway.

i painted my nails purify pink jus to carve a smile on my face and feel satisfied. i wish he was there to scold me and repeat the same old line again.

somehow, right now, even that sentence can tell me that he cares about me.

i AM feeling so emotional. im having random thoughts. got a problem?!

im still waiting for your call though.

everyone thinks i looked thinner. really?! i suppose.