I think that you could be whatever you wanted to be
If you could realize, all the dreams you have inside.
Don't be afraid if you've got something to say,
Just open up your heart and let it show you the way.

Believe in yourself.
Reach down inside.
The love you find will set you free.
Believe in yourself, you will come alive.
Have faith in what you do.
You'll make it through.

that's the best song to describe me at the moment.
Stay The Same by Joey Mcintyre

please give me the honour to interpret the lyrics.

( Don't you ever wish you were someone else )
god dyem yes, at this moment i wish i am someone else. someone dat nobody noes.

( You were meant to be the way you are exactly )
i know that. im born to be like this and i noe nothing can change the way i am. isit?

( When you learn to love yourself, you're better off by far )
i wish i haf the chance to learn to love myself. how can i wen i dun even know wad my heart wants? fact is, im lost. im trapped in confusion.

( Don't be afraid if you've got something to say,
Just open up your heart and let it show you the way )
i wish i haf that courage to speak up. i wish my heart gives me the chance to tell everyone wad im feeling right now. im afraid if i speak up and open up my heart, i'll be doom. perhaps, im not strong enough. im still a human with a soft heart.

( The love you find will set you free )
how i wish that sentence is sooo true. yet, the one who set you free is the one who loves you deeply.

right. all i nid is some faith. i cant possibly buy faith with money!

he finally asked 'are you okay?'. i answered 'do you want the truth or the lies?'

first he replied 'the truth'. and so i said 'im not okay.'

then he replied 'the lies?'. i answered 'im okay.'

when will dis last? where will this bring me?

those questions are only left unanswered. im so disappointed in myself.

i had some space yesterday. and now, who will help me get out of dis messy life?

the gurlfrens are leading their own life. the gurlfrens once know that dirah isn't the sort who kips everything to herself. dirah isn't the girl who dun noe how to handle matters of the heart. dirah always let it all out. yes, all. from feelings to hatred.

but that dirah doesn't exist anymore. ive lost the courage and faith halfway through my journey.

im goin to end this entry with a simple thought.

'how can i be living happily wen all i haf to do is listen to ___ and neva talked back? i choose to be with ___, and clearly, ___ told me that if u wanna leave with me, u'll haf to do things my way, not ur way.’

am i even wrong to answer that,

'im a human too. i haf feelings. i haf what i want in life. sometimes, i want you to listen to me too. those are unfair to me. put urself in my shoes and u'll noe wad i mean. true?'

they are NEVER true to ___.