im wondering.
what does it feel to have two heart and one soul?

that might sound tremendously pathetic and stupid, but think. wouldn't life be a lil bit betta?? perhaps, it's a yes for me.

i dunnoe why but i dun seem to get everything straight. u wanna know the pathetic side of me?

im not as strong as u think i am. especially if love that matters.

i suck at loving someone.

i suck at taking care of my own precious heart.

and most importantly, i suck at keeping my love life.

thus,

im only good at ruining everything. yes..especially afta years of building the love with my otha half.

where do i stand? i dun even know.

and sometimes, i jus wish dat the word 'love' never exist in my life. never. so i will never fall in love and able to keep my heart to myself.

but at times, i wanna haf some writings in my love story. i want to be his princess. i want to be the gerl who occupies his heart.

ouh right, im confuse. i hate to handle this shit. can u hear me scream??

at this tiny moment, im still wondering who's right for me and who's not right for me. will i still be able to stand up by myself and smile if i leave everything behind?

nobody enjoy saying goodbye to one another. fact is, i hate dat moment.

but is there even a soul who understands me?

i wanna get out of this life.

give me faith to assure me that i'll make through every obstacles.

however, i tend to say and do things i dun really mean.