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Monday, August 01, 2005 6:03 AM ;||*wen de gerls are left bhind*|| If love was a fire then we have lost the spark, Love never felt so cold.. Things r just not goin to werk out hunnie. either im being too understanding or im being unreasonable. maybe dats de onli ting u can see in me. ive tried so many times to understand you, but it just didnt turn out rite dear. i regret so much giving u a piece of my mind, but at de same tyme, i dont noe if u deserve it or not. as much as u hate fites n arguments, i too hate it. but from de bottom of my heart, im telling u dis. i love you n my love for u will neva fade no matter how much i hurt you or u hurt me. i just cant see myself without you. so hunnie, all i nid is you to hold my hand tight n walk with me through my entire life. den fer once, i noe im blessed. m confuse at de moment. too much tings are running in my mind now. n i dunnoe how else m supposed to deal with dem. i chose dis path of my life by myself, so wadeva dat is goin to happen, ive promised to myself dat im goin to hold onto it tight n neva give up. *shakes head* mum was talking to me wen i was in de toilet. planning to celebrate my upcoming bdae. mum: adeq, biler adeq nak celebrate bdae adeq ngan kiter? me: tak tahu la mama. adeq weekdaes schedule pack gilerr. mum: eh?? abeh camne? me: but im goin out wif my fwends on Sun. mum: ouh.. me: (feeling half-hearted hearing her went 'ouh') lau mama nak, adeq try tukar hari kluar ngan my friends ar. Mayb Sat. so dat on Sun, kiter bleh kluar. mum: ask ur friends first la oke? *nods head* so dat was de conversation btw me n momma wen i was in de toilet n she was in de kitchen. perhaps she's de one who's xcited fer my bdae. Hehs! still tinking. hunnie has to werk on Sat. so dere's no way i can go out on Sat wif him n de rest. n he got kinda pissed off wen suddenly im changing de plans. *sigh* so...im in dilemma! Bah! okay, so dis topic has been a HOT topic btw mum n sis. sis was trying to forget dis particular guy whom she's reallie n madly in lurve wif. But u noe, guys like him are betta off being dump! so i told sis to just forget dat jerk n move on wif her life. n so, she's move on wif her life. mum gotta noe dis guy who is superbly amazing! i'll tell u why later. n dat guy has a torch fer my sis. and so, momma arranged fer dem to go into a relationship. Yerp, seeing my sis still being single despite her age made us feel sooo dyem worried fer her. u see, ive found my otha half n parents are happy fer me n him. n im their second daughter. wouldnt dat supposed to happen to de elder daughter first? *evil laugh* dis is y i labeled him as 'superbly amazing' guy. He works as an engineerer. so, imagine how much he brings home every month! (1st WOW!) he rides a bike which cost him lyke 5k! (2nd WOW!) he's planning on buying a house since he's already legal fer it. (3rd WOW!) sis said he's too HOT fer her. (4th WOW!) amazed?? nvm, im amazed. *wide smile* so who'll be lucky to get dat kinda brother-in-law if not me n adeq?? *pimp laugh* Get wad i mean?? Hehs! i dunno if i should go out or just stay at home. parents are out to Johor leaving de gerls behind at home. i got lotsa assignments to do, but im just not in de mood to start doing those assignments. im sooo in de mood fer a lil shopping! but im too lazy to dress up n too lazy to take those public transport. *sigh* wad im trying to say is basically, im lazy to do aniting. Haha.. yest was funn. Blergh! it's alwas fun to eat free foods rite? had our late dinner at Bedok North. it's been sucha looong tyme since i last ate their delicious Roti John Cheese! *licks lip* And before dat, i met up wif my cuzens at Spore Expo. i wanted to find a Kain Batik fer Hari Raye but it's blardie hell expensive. Furthermore, de designs are all 'yucks!'. so, i didnt get any but mum bot fer me dis beaded brown necklace which is sooo keyooot! it looks sooo beach-y wear. *thumbs up* didnt xpect Saiful to turn up too. i will onli get to see dat cuzen of mine once a year, which is onli on Hari Raya. Haha..n he's grown up! i wonder if gerls in his school went crazee fer him. i personally tink he's cute n gorgeous. Probably acceptable fer a Sec3 guy. Haha.. i betta start clicking on de 'Post' button before i blab everyting dat is unnecessary n unmeaningful. Will be back soon! And yerp, ive made up my mind. im goin out. no doubt. That's It For Today. Goodbye.
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