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Friday, June 03, 2005 9:02 AM ;||*i miss him n her*|| I woke up todae, feeling soo tired, restless, n most important of all, meaningless. Yerp..life has been soo meaningless fer me dis past few daes. If u were to ask me y, seriously, I'll answer "im not sure too". i just dunnoe wad i wan. To tink dat I haf everything dat a gerl drims of, yet im still not satisfied. Typical me. *sigh* Let me start off wif sumting pitiful. No. *shakes head* im not trying to be sucha pity gurl, but dis is realli a pity fer me. listen. i used to sleep wif adeq. Really. N wen everytyme I cant sleep, i'll sit beside myself on de bed, listening to my MP3, n watched adeq sleeping. Soundfully. N at tymes, it brought smiles into my life. i noe i noe. n at tymes, i realise dat i luv her soo much n bcos of dat, she is being pampered by me. But yest, was her first day of her NPCC camp. So yaaa..i haf to sleep all alone. Turned to my left, nope. Dere's no her. turned to my rite, de wall. How bored. No story telling n no gossiping. Yup, we do gossip together. So much so we do share some secrets dat noone else noe, even fahn. See wad i mean. We are too close to each other. Dat sumtymes, ppl tink we're twins. or even worse, ppl tink dat she's 1yr older den me. i dunnoe. *shrug* n before she went off to camp yest, she gaf me a kiss on de cheek while I was sleeping. Felt it, so I woke up. N gaf her a return kiss. Wad im trying to tell u is dat im missing her. alot. too much. Big big. N I jus can't wait fer her return. Read adeq's blog. i dunno. De yellow note seemed to be veri touchy, n im wondering who's she referring to. Mayb i noe, maybe im still clueless. Let me quote sumtink tear-ful from her blog. "remember wad I told u to do if u were to miss me while I was awae.. remember.? I said, look at the sky and wish me gdnite. Coz.. dats where I will be facing wen im slping in the open-field." *tears* Alrite, enuf of her. so I start skul at 8am todae n ended at 3pm. De first 3hrs, I had Mobile Computing lab. Yaaa..sucks! 3hrs! dealing wif de computer. But just now, we ended at 9am, which is actualli 2hrs earlier. Thank god! *phew* So me n syasya were surfing friendster, n editing our blog template. N sheeessh!! We took de same type of image slideshow. Check it out. haha..two great minds tink alike mah! Hehs! Skipped de lecture. Too bored to attend n I swear I cant understand wad Mr Matti Prasai was blabbering or betta still, mumbling about. He n his ascent. Drive me craziee sia! *head spinning* So we went to Cyber Center to print all de lecture notes. Yesss..wen im tgh smangat, dun block my way. On de way home, I dropped at adeq's school to see her if she's doin well or not. n obviously fahn had to tag along. He noes how much I luv my adeq. Sadly, I didn't see her around afta waiting fer lyke 45mins dere. Sad. *sob sob* De sun was lyke so scorching hot todae. dat I tink I nid to haf some desert to cool down my body temperature. Went to Kopitiam to haf Red Ruby. *lick lips* Hmm..yummy!! n soo, here i am posting an entry. Gosh, i tink i nid to click on de Post button now before i cnue posting some unrelevant stuff. Haha.. When you left I lost a part of me It's still so hard to believe Come back baby please We belong together Who else am I gonna lean on When times get rough Who's gonna talk to me Till the sun comes up Who's gonna take your place Baby nobody else We belong together Yess dear. We do belong together. im sorry if ive hurt u soo much. U noe im heartbroken too. So pls dun let our love fade off just lyke dat. U noe how much u mean to me. U noe how much i luv u. u noe how much i cant live without you.. u noe it all hunnie. So dear..im telling u n everyone here dat I do luv u de way I did. I didn't wan to tell you dat all i nid is fer u to understand me n gif me some space. im afraid dat u might tink im asking too much from you. n im afraid of losing u dear. N de truth is, I can't live without you.. *hugs n kisses* That's It For Today. Goodbye.
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