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Sunday, April 01, 2007 3:07 PM ;half alive. I was in such a terrible mood last night. I refused to talk; because talking requires thinking and because I don't need to fill my ears with explanations. It just doesn't work for me, not anymore. &that explains why I set my phone to the off mode yesterday night. Nonetheless, I slept pretty well and woke up pretty late. Personally, that's a good sign because if you must know, I am trying to give it a little slack. I came to realise how much giving it a tight grip can leave me feeling regretful on one fine day. And yesterday was my first ever meet-ups with the AMP people. They are nice, very nice indeed. During the half hour break, Raja engaged a personal conversation with me, telling me life in National Service and how much the system can abruptly change someone's life, someone's relationship. But somehow, he made a good point during the conversation - it isn't always about the girl who will eventually betray the guy. It is also about the guy's influence after meeting the other 93749641940 guys there. Start to ponder, people. Who says giving tuition is an easy money job? It is not until you've graduated and requires touch up on Physics, Chemistry and Mathematics. That's exactly what I was doing minutes before typing out this entry. I need a real break from Science. An hour ago, I received a private call with a girl's voice on the other line. She threw me with the most redundant question, "Where's your boyfriend?" and then it went on and on and on until she heard me shrieked and almost in tears (read: ALMOST). From the start, whatever she said seemed so real, that I put 101% of my attention and trust there in the phone talk. &then, the phone call ended with total madness, full of profanities. Bitch, that was my first April's Fool shit okay. You just played me, bah! Jepon, you've made me smile but the disappointment I felt last night is still within me. Sigh, I want to fool people too. I want to tell preetyboy that I love him and that I am thinking of him. I want to indulge myself in a cup of hot Milo. It will be nice. Take care. That's It For Today. Goodbye.
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