i can't seem to stop listening to it. Avril Lavinge's new hit single Girlfriend has been playing on repeat for at least an hour. i just find the lyrics amusing and contradicting, if you get what i mean. &then my heart will go "fuck, can you please ask your pathetic boyfriend to stop calling my boyfriend?". seriously to YOU, i mean that sentence. it's getting more than just irritating la. just, get a life can?

for at this moment, life has been so good to me. oh, it's not that im asking for more but when was the last time god gave me the entire stretch of months to do just anything i want? i can't remember. the other day, i went to accompany mom to a salon and i couldn't help staring at one side of a wall with frames of hairstyling diploma. &then my thoughts went astray. it would be so perfect if my name was printed on those.

anywayyy, i had a conversation with the hairstylist about the mass difference between obtaining a diploma from a professional and the one sponsored by ITE. it seems that the latter one serves more benefits since it is a 2years full-time course. &mom on the other hand was so keen on my decision to stop all the things i have to do with engineering and get on with something i really like that she volunteered to help me pay the fees. now im thinking, probably after my exam results.

talking about which, the exam results will be out tomorrow. i don't wish to sit for any supplementary papers, it will be such a bore. like, who will want to study when they are already set to the holiday mood? not me. dear god, im hoping for the best in my exam results. only then i can graduate with so much pride and move on with another chapter of my life. oh, i have yet to make a return to the school library to pay my 6bucks library fine. the administrator has been pestering me through my email which i constantly clicked on the delete icon. i was told that one will not be able to graduate if he/she has yet to settle those fines. okay, that's a lame one TP.

as you know, i haven't been doing much during the holidays. i have no full-time job, which does not suck because i was the one who rejected every offer that comes my way. they don't understand when i said im still young to have a full-time job. it's equivalent to no life, get it? i still want to get different diplomas so that i have alternatives in my next life. since the start of holiday and up till today, my life is all about the boyfriend, friends and tutoring. see, im not complaining. yet.

i feel so hungry &i think im shrinking. dad thought i should stuff more vegetables and fruits to make myself looks more like a living soul. whereas i thought, he should give me some shopping money so that i can shop more for new tops and bottoms to make myself looks more like a living soul. hahaaa. okay since im all alone at home on EVERY weekdays, i should make do with easy breakfast that do not need any form of fire. oh, shut up.

wait, im craving for MacDonald. bahhhh.

maybe one fine day, i'll make a good photographer. diam lah.