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Wednesday, August 30, 2006 1:36 PM ;he who can, does; he who cannot, teaches just maybe i should start posting lively entry. &yah, i accidentally hit my toe at the back of preetyboy's bike while trying to climb on it. pain okay! yesterday after tuition, we had nowhere to go so preetyboy decided on Pasir Ris park. i, on the other hand, don't really like the thought of walking back and fro in the park; it's tiring. so i asked "b, why do you always like going to the park with me everytime we had nowhere to go after my tuition?" &he looked at me, stunned? because it's quiet and nice, you don't like it? he replied. "no. it's just that i prefer somewhere with many people." and he continued: then let's go to Simpang. there's a lot of people there. bah! i don't know if he's trying to bahasakan me or otherwise, which i declined. so we were stucked beside Fisherman's Village, looking at big fishes swimming gleefully in the pond. i swear at that point of time, my mind was totally free from every thoughts ive been having lately &for once, i feel so much freedom. plus, we did some real talk too when preetyboy popped up this question to me which totally scared me. "im afraid you'll leave me when im serving National Service." preetyboy, i admit that i do make big mistakes in life &that i totally regret doing such stupid mistakes. if you let me have my second chance, i want to love you all over again and make you feel being loved. i may not be good at expressing my love for you, but i want you to know that your presence in my life is everything to me. please know that i truly love you &that i just want to be near you. frankly, it scared the deepshit out of me thinking of those lonely days im going to have when you served your NS. if possible, i want to be next to you but the law doesn't approve of such mushy stuff. it has never once occurs to me that im going to leave you. everytime we talk about my feelings, i realized it's getting more complicating than it is already is. my actions don't go well with my words; and that's the downside of me. ive tried ways to deliver across positive messages, but all i get from the other party is something negative. but im certain, i love you so. you see, if everyone just read my entries without questioning, i would have typed down all my feelings and forget about the world. but oh well, that was just a little girl's fantasy. anywayyy, i received a handmade batik flower from a tuition kid since Teacher's Day is just around the corner. now i feel appreciated; thankyouverymuch. i had this itch to return to Pasir Ris Crest tomorrow, but i was told that there will be no celebration for Teacher's Day. i was like whattt?? are you goddamnit serious? then suddenly i have this temptation of wanting to see the new principal's face, tell me about it prcs-ian. but rest assured, both me & preetyboy have only one intention of coming down - we badly miss Mr Razak. period. That's It For Today. Goodbye.
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