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Wednesday, July 05, 2006 3:34 PM ;||*sweeter than the sunflower*|| i haven't been feeling good this past few days. i feel so naked and empty without my handphone which apparently decided to perish from my life till i-don't-know-when. i've been making things difficult for both my mum and the little one; i can't stop using their phones as another alternative of contacting the loved ones. oh, you don't wish to know how much i miss my phone. panata's BIL was kind enough to borrow his spare nokia phone to me, although mine is a 3G simcard and every saved files and contacts are in my memory card, it's okay. as long as im able to make calls, receives calls and messaging, im truly contented. so people, please show some pity on me and leave your name behind after messaging me. thankyouverymuch. let's wander off the point. people have been judging me through my facial expressions. smiles don't mean im happy. i can be happily smiling my sadness away, but you don't know. frowns don't mean im in my lowest mood. let's just say i forgot to smile at the right time or im just too lazy to smile, you don't know that too. i won't deny the fact that i can act so damn good if my feelings that matters. but frankly, who cares about what i feel? just now when i opened my purse, i realised that my five blue notes are left with only two blue notes ($100). i spent too much on unnecessary stuffs; plus face the fact, i have the little one at home who do nothing but chew on her two elder sisters' money. hmmph! tomorrow will officially be our self-break day; we planned to hit Marina instead of keeping our butts here in the lab. sounds fun right? i know. wait till my mum finds out that all my blue notes have disappeared. last few days, i was so scared of coming home. i was so scared that i've hurt dad's feelings eventhough i know he's not the kind who will talk things out with his three daughters. he prefers to talk it out to mom and just let mom do the talking to us. mom has always been the patient one around us; the one who will never fails to hear my everyday stories with preetyboy; the one who always make things better and perfect at home. but somehow, you can't run away from all the lies you've been telling right? someday, they will catch up with you and when that day comes, all you wish is the floor to swallow you up before you feel even more sinful. god! and now, ive been smiling alot without reasons..all these things that have been happening around me, they're just so sweet; sweeter than the sunflower, oh yes! oh love, you should know by now that i miss you. =) That's It For Today. Goodbye.
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