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Saturday, July 01, 2006 9:54 PM ;||*the moment alone*|| i don't need... your excuses to cover up your mistake. your sweet words to make things better. other people to solve our problem. your hatred to make me mad. everything that you're doing to me. i've had enough. i hate myself for not keeping my words; breaking them again and again. i hate myself for not being able to have that courage to hear the truth; afterall the truth always hurt. i hate myself for having this mindset that everybody is different; but when the truth is out, i cant bring myself to say that everybody is the same. you make me hate myself. what's there left to be said; nothing. what more excuses can you find; nothing. what more do you expect me to say; nothing. im left all speechless. and all i want is to be alone, find myself and stand on this two feet again. to be who i used to be, and conquer the whole road and lead my own direction. words are just words. they're meaningless if you don't mean what you said. i remember all the things you once said, but now they're just a piece of bullshit to me. you did everything, but you did not break my heart; you i just need to be alone for now and keep staring into space; although i know nothing is in my mind, or rather there's too much to overlook.. anyway, we got lost searching for that pathetic Far East Square, and as a result, i think im getting darker (okay, too exaggerating) but anyway, dinner at Bistro Delifrance was perfect; the environment was heavenly. the ride home, i almost fall asleep on the bike. baby, your bike is too smooth; well, is that an advantage or otherwise? That's It For Today. Goodbye.
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