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Tuesday, April 26, 2005 3:43 PM ; Looked at myself in de mirror wen I realized I got puffy eyes. Puffy eyes during school holidays?? Mus b crazee..but im NOT lying. Bcos ive been sleeping late lyke 3am every nite!! And every aftanoon, I'll feel sleepy but I cant sleep bcos de sun is soo damn bright! So no choice, I had to tahan my eyes. Irritating to be exact.. haiz!! Mum was nagging n nagging since I woke up at 11.30am to 1+pm..GAWD!! fer one thing im surprised, y izit dat mum can always go nagging lyke 1hr or more without getting tired?? Amazing..de wonder deyre known as momma. haha!! So de reasons she got very pissed off is bcos me n my sis still dunno how to do housework wen one is alreadi 18 n de other is 19. shheeesshh!! To be specific, we don't noe how to wash our own clothings and undergarments! N she's irritated bcos half of our clothes were all those dat cannot be washed using washing machine. N poor her had to wash it using hands. Oke, now im siding wif her. NOWAY!! My ears gonna burst any minute from now! So from today onwards, she reminded us dat she's not goin to wash our clothes if it needs to be handwashed. OMG!! So, I had to do it myself?? Now many curses are goin thru my head. No,im not cursing her, but my clothes. I mean y mus those eye-catching clothes always nid to be handwashed?? Ergh..!! pathetic! Forget abt dat. It'll onli make me sick. Im goin to start another meaningless entry here. just bare wif me ouhplease! Bumped into someone yest at Orchard. I don't want to mention his name here but wad I noe is dat I dun really want to see his face ever again afta wad he did to me in de past. Thanks to him, I got a farking n sucking past lives!! Here's a note fer him, Dear mr i-noe-wad-you-want, Im sorie if I didn't smile at u or say hi to u yest wen I bumped into u. I noe u wanted to smile at me n approached me but I walked too fast dat u can't catch up wif me. im not trying to be snobby or wadeva it is. I tink it's betta if we jus kip our distance lyke wad u did to me afta shit happened btw us. u left me all alone wen I needed you e most. I prayed every nite to get u back but my prayers didn't cum true. Mayb dere's a reason bhind everything dat happened. N bcos of dat, I started to dump more guys, playing wif their feelings lyke nobody business.It's all bcos of you. I soon got tired of wad im doing, I too wan a lovestory. So I jus get on wif my life without you although it was damn hard fer me. bcos at dat moment, I still lurve you. I lurve u too much dat I cried every single nite. I waited helplessly fer your phone call, msges but I received nothing. Now, someone had given me a torch to lite up thru my entire life. My feelings fer u finally fade off. I hope I dun owned u aniting. So please, im begging, if ever a dae cum wen u want to acknowledge me as ur fwend, I would gladly say thank you but it's all passed. I realized dat u've turned into a new leaf. U're no longer de mat-tappered I noe. But dat's it. if possible, I dun ever wan to meet u again bcos u will onli bring back de sadness in my life. Phew!! Im done wif dat. My dear peep who is reading dis entry, just an advice fer you. I noe it's hard to forget de person u once loved deeply. Ive gone thru every farking lurve life. so, my advice fer u, never hope too much from de person u lurve. Bcos wen u dun get wad u hope fer, noone will be disappointed XCEPT you my dear. Disappointment is de last thing u expect in your love life. If possible, jus treasure de person now b4 dey're gone. Love lyke it will never hurt. Love lyke dere's no tomorrow but dun put hopes bcos disappointment will await you. Oke, let's stop. It's getting too touchy n mushy here. haha!! Wadeva it is, Dat's jus a piece of my mind. Wan another piece of my mind?? Here it is, Im sooo in lurve wif FARHAN mazlan hehs!! Dun puke bcos dis is true..! That's It For Today. Goodbye.
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