can you please just stop poisoning my mind? i feel so sick.

just as i thought my late night study yesterday was bad with preetyboy having to work night shift, he texted me a sweet message: "Hoi.. I boring se.. And i miss u.." haha. i couldn't stop smiling &ran to the home phone to call him. it was after a few rings that he answered the phone. "b, i can't talk on the phone but i can message you." hoho, okay love! sometimes, i do things without thinking when im too happy la.

preetyboy kept reminding me to study and study and study because he doesn't want to see me failing here and there. he even gave a cool suggestion: "if you're tired from studying, go use the computer for a while &then back to your books." grr. you macam paham aje ah &he laughed when i said that. told you, this boy is love.

oh, on the last few days that preetyboy came over to my place, i laid my head on his shoulder &we talked almost about us. just us. how us being in a 4years relationship doesn't feel that time is really passing real quick because we don't have anniversary (he thought having anniversary before getting married was crap), how relationship really has its ups and downs &how strong each of us tried to stay and solve a problem. it was all because under two reasons; we love each other & we need each other.

im changing for the better &im way too glad how everyone around me try to give me some much confidence and support. seriously, i can see a big difference between me (the last time) and me (now).

it was all because of the one i dearly love.

i remember the first day we talked to each other, he was the one who taught me about life when my life started to drift away in secondary school days; he was the one who gave me so much advice that in life, you need a goal; and he was the listening ear who made my days even much better. &it was so complete when i had my bad days and he told me that somebody out there really care for me and will always be there for me &that i didn't see it. boy, he was referring to himself. =)

omg, im sooo drifting away when im supposed to be studyng for my last paper, like now!

now i just need you to tell me something. how to survive the upcoming two weeks holiday without money?

goddamnit.