i can still remember vividly the first day i met you. it was in pasir ris crest sec sch, our school. you were just some ordinary guy with this cute face. the funny thing is, i got all excited at the sight of you and my heart tends to skip a beat the moment i landed my eyes on you. i kept watching you from a distance, but i dare not say anything to you. i like the way you teased every single people, the way you made them laugh or even cry. i thought that was just an attraction, rather than a love thing. but i was wrong. years down the road, i realised that it was so hard for me to totally forget your existence. it was then you began to notice me. you disturbed all girls except me. i kept wondering why and soon, i got the answer. (keep reading to find the answer) In sec4, we were in the same class, that was after you requested for a change of class. we did exchanged smiles, but we never talk. and the next moment, you asked for my number from someone and we began contacting each other without anyone knowing about it. not even our closest friends. but heaven wasn't always on our side. we stopped contacting each other under some reasons. days later, i was brought to the hospital. and you were the first person to msg me, asking about my condition. i was overjoyed. never did i imagine that you still do care about me. i turned to you everytime im down with endless problems. we talked on the phone till late night, and that was when i asked you why didn't you talk to me in school. why is it that im the only girl that you did not tease. and you finally gave me the answer after being forced. you told me, you wanted to make me feel special. you wanted to treat me different from other girls cause secretly, you've been admiring me. sweet. months later, the whole school knew about us. some had negative comments about us, while some said it will only be temporary.

for now, what matter is, we are still as strong as the rock. maybe, we can prove them wrong. and our love life will continue..

seeing all those things that has passed by, i miss every single thing about us. i miss those time when everyone in school stared at us. cause we're together. i miss the time when you waited for me after every remedial class i had. i miss the time when you secretly smell my perfume everytime i walked to the front of the classroom to collect my book. i miss looking at how cute you fall asleep at every lesson. i miss looking at how silly you and your boys can get whenever there's no teacher in class. i miss your super loud voice in class. i miss the time when you turned your head in class and winked at me. and i was smiling from ear to ear until i forgot a simple physic formula. i miss the time when you first called me up and your voice was so soft. simply because i have a soft voice. you sounded so romantic. i miss the time when you used to msg me every time you reached home after school. and i didn't reply your msg cause i was still outside, hanging out with my girls. and when i returned your msg in the evening, you didn't reply cause you've fallen asleep. i miss the time when we had our first date. you bought me my favourite drink and i refused to eat cause im full. and you stopped eating cause you told me you were full. we took the bus home and you insisted on holding my bag for me. it was then you told me that actually, we were too shy eating infront of me, so you told me that you were full instead. you were so funny. i miss the time when you stuffed that earpiece in my right ear and another in your left ear so that we can listen to your band playing. i miss the time when you always laughed at me, seeing how pathetic i looked like in my girl guide uniform. but i ignored you cause i love seeing the way you laughed at me. i miss the time when i had to practice marching under the blazing sun and you were up there on level2, shaking your head, signaling to me that you pitied me. but ofcourse, you did nothing. i miss the time when we used to walk all the way from our school to my house, which is a 30mins walk. and during the journey home, we will always sit under a void deck and talked. i miss the time when you asked me to show you my palm so that you can read something from it. you were so cute. and when i refused, you grabbed my hand and insist that i answer your question, if not, you will not let go of my hand. i know that was one of your tactic cause you wanted to hold my hand badly. and even after ive answered your question, you did not let go of my hand. i miss the time when you were shorter than me. i miss the time bullying you, just because you were short and cute. and most importantly, i miss the time when you first said i love you and kiss me over the phone right before ending our conversation. and i miss our first kiss. you were so great at it.

that was a whole lot of fun. you are so special to me and right now, you even conquered my whole heart. you'll always be that sweet and cute little boy. i love you for who you are, i seriously do. you will always be in my heart.

back then till now..