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Wednesday, April 12, 2006 11:57 AM ;||*under my spell*|| part of me feels like giving up. another part of me keeps assuring me that things will be better in no time. which is the reality, and which is not? do you really mean it when you said those? won't you want to take back your words? it's fucking hurting me badly. your words made me lost all the confidence i used to have seconds ago. puff, just like that. right now, my brain is doing the work, not the heart cause the heart is too sore to speak. and in any minute, the brain will explode and it will just give up. just like how i'll give up in no time. im too tired to carry on. im too sick of giving in all the time. im too frustrated of having it your way always. and im too fucked up for having this ego with me. i want to move on with my life. i hate to be standing on this thin rope. thin ice. make a step forward, i'll fall. make a step backward, i'll fall too. maybe, i should just do nothing. you should see the strength that i've lost. you should see the confidence that i've lost. and you should see the tears that i've lost. i've lost everything, because of you. yet, you did not see through it. what does it take to make you see through everything?? im lost for words. the only thing i can do is turn around and walk away. and NEVER look back. im sick and im tired. yet, you're having fun and don't even give a fucking care about me. That's It For Today. Goodbye.
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